MY JANUARY 2020

January 2020 is going on very exciting to my life and so does frightening…also surprising…

I went to Mondolkiri province with my family for my first time… So cold and beautiful there…

 

 

I went to Kep province with my colleagues, we worked hard and we played to the max…

 

 

 

I spent Chinese New Year with my in-law family in Kampong Cham province, I’m always the princess to my in-law family, love them!

Though, I got damn scared with the new virus which gives such danger alert to the world… “Novel Coronavirus Wuhan”!!! I’m afraid my family would be infected… I’m pity the lives that lost and their family… So frightening!

Last but not least, I got surprising gifts for my birthday, the pink cutie bear and a beautiful bouquet with my favorite flowers… #1 Sunflowers, #2 Lily, #3 Roses… I frankly was quite surprised since I didn’t think they would gift me (they celebrated for me already on our trip to Kep province…).

  

 

It meantime also was a sad day to me… Repeated occurring… While other did the celebration for me, no one in my family notice and none of them remembered my birthday… They also forgot me last year and before last year, also before last two years and so on, I still found it hard to believe it could happen on me… In my family, all members remembered each other special days but they often forgot only me…  What is worse, I never forget their days… I cannot hide my disappointment from my Mom’s notice… She asked me and I told her all… She was surprised and asked me why I didn’t mention... Did she mean like I tried to not say it out, lets it get over and complaint? Actually, I did want to tell them but my words were stuck… I seemed like if I spoke it out, I would encourage ma tears to come along with… Back and forth, it is not the first time too… Mom said sorry to me, she told me she believed I am quite strong to go on by myself but not my siblings … Well, I’m not that strong… I still need attention, loves and cares from my family… I don’t want celebration or gift but their acknowledgement and their loves… I also want to feel special as their family members…

Last night, I could not sleep tight… It was hard to stop the tears… I felt so empty… I was dramatically broken… The Sun seems give me strength… New day starts, I get better in no time… I could get over… I feel better… I persuaded myself to go back to my theory, “Family is family no matter what!” I would give them the unchanged loves and try my best to stop expecting their reactions (I said so last year too, it must be hard to stop expecting but I must do it) … Love myself more and more, comfort myself! And keep remembering my face while crying, that was so ugly… I should not do it again, especially on 29 January!

 I should not allow myself to get the same pain!

Only one month of this 2020, things has happened spectacularly…

Sympathize my lonely soul…

My Christmas 2019

Several posts of my 2019 Christmas! Silly in love with this season...

Guardian Angel

Things have occurred in both positive and negative in this 2019 but it has been more on negative side… 2019 must be not my year! I’ve stayed calm and hope 2020 would be soon to be with me… Oh lah… Then I am told 2020 would be a tough one for me again! Yet, it is better than 2019 since I have way to fix it.

What is that?

THAT IS… I must find out my GUARDIAN ANGEL!

(I do believe in this supernatural belief! Hehehe)

Who is that then?

I have no idea at all…

Who would be glad to be my Guardian Angel?

Who would volunteer to protect me?

Oh lord!!!

And is that male or female?

I just wish to be male…hehehe… I’m getting along well with male…

And I hope he is handsome… XD

Is he a mature man or that sexy guardian angel? Hehehe… I’m just kidding!

Whoever…. If you are meant to be my Guardian Angel, I trust you would be kind to me! ^^

Stay next to me this upcoming whole year 2020 please!

I’m pretty scared of being suffering, being the petty victim!

(I had experienced so much before, please do not happen on me again…please!!!)

I hope we would recognize each other quickly… Could it be the first day of 2020 that I would find you or you would find me?

I’m looking forward to seeing you soon.

Are you going to be so? ^^

Or Are you going to be like this? :D

Wedding Anniversary

Well, I don’t expect anything since he never celebrated before…

We didn’t even have a special meal for this type of day…

I was so disappointed, quite upset… indescribable mood!

I was feeling terrible; I was miserable… From first year of our anniversary, second year…fifth year… sixth year anniversary, nothing seems different… I told him what I wanted and it seemed like I was so childish to him… My man didn’t even remember well of this day... While our seventh year anniversary, we were on work mission to different places…

I rethought, I motivated myself, I gave myself more and more loves, I trained myself to stay in peace with positivity and of course, I gained the real happiness from such zero expectation… My wedding anniversary is so meaning to me, yet I won’t claim for anything…

December 08, 2019 is my 8 years Wedding Anniversary! I know it, I do feel it but I am so calm in such a mature way. I love myself for being this way. No more pains…

My man called me and my both boys out for meal (I heard he was on phone with his friends for gathering)

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We arrive on top of a building, at the seventeen floor…

I ask him where are his friends? He replies: only us…

All foods arrive, wine arrives and cocktails arrives…

I ask him why need to order this much for only two adults and two kids…

He smiles and says…” Happy 8^th years Anniversary!”

I am like… Oh lord!! Am I dreaming? O__o?

I give him a big smile with excitement! That is quite a surprising moment!

The view is attractively beautiful from another side of the city whereas we could see the city at night brightly…

We talk, we take photos, we cheer and we enjoy our special dinner together!

Thank you for such this beautiful moment of our 8^th years wedding anniversary!

Last but not least, there is no Anniversary Gift…!! ^^” Though, that is already lovely impressive and the situation is much improving as well! I am satisfied! >LOVES<

Hello Blog! Hello upcoming December!

We have been a part long enough my dear blog! Many things happened including the unexpected bad, the sad ones, yet the good moments with joys, hanged out often with different people! That is tasty! My tasty pleasure!

Meantime, my beloved season is back damn fast… It does proof that the moment we are working with our all and don’t keep waiting, time is going on quicker even it is actually going on as normal…hehehe… This is the windy season! Yeeeeeeeee!! ^^

I love wearing my sweater with mild long skirt or the long trousers plus with heel to go to work! I feel my warm body and my cold face… It’s way that make me feel Wowww… hehehe… I do love this type of taste… They are going along perfectly to my opinion!

Happy upcoming December! I hope this last month of 2019 would bring me memorable experience with a lot of loves, laugh and caring! I’m waiting for you!

***LOVE***