RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

There were almost 5 days passed…only 175 days remaining! Time is passing by its nature… I'm now a bit calm to wait and try to use my time enjoyable than keep being sad...force myself not to let my tears come out more…but the feeling of waiting, it still exists in my daily habit. Most of the time that I think and worry of him… I want him come back soon, miss him.... but I remember when we both were together, we also got many arguments too…lol… I used to be highly furious with his action in term of no much consideration before his acting…but I also used to appreciate him quite much of his achievement…he’s up and down…!!! He’s kinda mature guy while sometime, tend to be so foolish as well…hahaha… Being with him, I got all of feelings….happy, sad, romantic, worry, excited, warm, angry, disappointed…etc. Because of these, his shadow always appears in front of my eyes in my living’s time and days… miss him, really miss him! This is my love...!!! lolz…never feel enough!!

Sunday of 19th August 2012, the day of my husband’s leaving for 6 months training in India had arrived… it seems too fast! I had tried much to control my feeling for not to be easily known but it’s still impossible. A night before his departure day, we were together and helped each other to pack the clothes and some dry-food. We were joking and teasing each other with some bad words and many sweet words…lol… I love that time really much… and of course, that was the night that both of us cannot sleep well... we both kept sleeping near each other in a silent way, being in his arms…listened to his beating heart..!! :S I felt warm and accidently fell asleep…would be around 2 hours next, I was awaked coz of getting a kiss on my mouth…and yea, from my beloved guy…he smiled to me very gently! Didn’t he sleep yet within these two hours? Then, a kiss was returned as he deserved to get… That night had passed, early morning came to replace… we started prepared ourselves since 6:00 AM and w...

ពេលវេលាដូចជាចំលែកណាស់ មែនអត់ ? ពេលខ្លះក៏ដើរលឿនអើយលឿន ចុះម៉េចក៏ពេលខ្លះដើរយឺតអស់ថ្លែងចឹង ? ដូចមិនដឹងគួរនិយាយថាមិច! រឺក៏មកពីយើងខ្លួនឯង ? ថាចឹងក៏បែបត្រូវដែរ ព្រោះអីខ្ញុំលឺគេនិយាយថា ពេលវេលាគ្មានយឺត គ្មានលឿនអីទេ វាតែប៉ុនហ្នឹង ហើយអ្វីដែលយើងឆ្លងកាត់គឺកើតមកពីអារម្មណ៍យើងខ្លួនឯង! ? តើអ្នកអាចយល់ពីខ្លួនឯងបានប៉ុណ្ណាដែរ ? ដែលគិតអត់ ? ចំពោះខ្លួនខ្ញុំ   អត់ទេ អត់ដឹងថាយល់ពីខ្លួនឯងបានប៉ុណ្ណាទេ។ ពេលខ្លះ ខ្ញុំចង់ឲ្យម៉ោងដើរលឿនណាស់ តែម៉េចក៏ពេលខ្លះទៅជាយំព្រោះតែវាដើរលឿនទៅវិញ ? ខ្ញុំ....អាចចាត់ទុកថាជាមនុស្សកំរមាន ព្រោះអីខ្ញុំតែងសំរេចបាន​នូវក្តីប្រាថ្នាស្ទើរតែទាំងអស់ ជឿអត់ ? វាជាការពិត!!!! តែឥឡូវខ្ញុំកំពុងតែចង់ឆ្កួតលប់ព្រោះតែប្រាថ្នាក្លាយជាការពិត …. ​ ថាទៅ បានប្រាថ្នាឲ្យពេលវេលាដើរលឿន ហើយតាំងពីប្រាថ្នាមក ដើរលឿនដូចចិត្ត   =,= ​ ខ្ញុំចង់ឲ្យវាដើរលឿនព្រោះតែចង់ឆាប់បានឃើញមុខកូនក្នុងផ្ទៃឲ្យឆាប់ៗ តែដោយសារតែដើរលឿនពេក វាក៏មកដល់ថ្ងៃដែលជាគំរោងចេញទៅរៀននៅស្រុកក្រៅរបស់គ្រួសារខ្ញុំរយះពេល៦ខែ   :’(   ណាគេមិនកើតទុក្ខ ណាគេមិនយំពេលប្តីត្រូវទៅឆ្ងាយ អត់បាននៅមើលថែប្រពន្ធ មើលមុខកូនទើបហ្នឹងកើត ??? ខ្ញុំមិនដឹងទេ គេ...