RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

Well, I am not living in the hardest life now because of money… but just the hard one. My man is a good guy actually… he gives me all his salary… and just take back to support some of his daily expense. However, I still don’t feel enough. I want him to earn more by doing business or some other legal methods. Of course, if sum up between his salary and me, we could live happily but it is only enough to spend on our daily life… we can save none… I feel so stress most of time when I see him… My man before was so caring of earning money...but now…he say he doesn't care...he gave me all his salary... and then he feels free...he said.. he doesn't care... when a guy doesn't care of money anymore...de girl will be de hardest... when will I become that real rich? I keep asking myself… Why? Why I’m the lady but need to work full day while he works mostly only half day? Why? Why I’m the lady but I need to respond many things? And why, why I could earn double than him? Why h...

My life recently become something I can't regconize... Enter de home, but I can't feel home... Seeing who I used to love but juz used to... My heart is so empty, my brain think nothing and my soul become confusing; plus, damn exhausted... I couldn't feel any care, love nor any expect for future... Maybe I should stop here or continue with my tasteless and that ignorance life???

I’m mad, well… I’m mad again and again… I wonder how come I always meet kinda people I don’t ever think I’m deserved to meet… I’m not the unique person; though, I keep putting my brain first in solving problems… Well, there would be sometime I’m too mad…and lose my commitment… but just in less numbers… I love sharing my jobs, I love helping other… and I love making friends with all level of people… What do I get do you think then? What I have in return… Those people seem trying to cover their jobs… my help to them is called annoying and interfering their responsibilities… I used to be told to do only my job and pass their job to them…lol… emm…they also love making friends… but not really everyone… hehehe… Sometime, I just ask them something… Actually, I know there are any errors or mistakes… I still don’t wanna raise it up but replace by asking them… I want them to know their mistakes themselves… I save their faces… What’s then? They shout at me… They try to protect themselves...