RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

Hay!!! I was attracted by a song, called “Love Yourself”…. Without knowing whose sang it, I love this song a lot since I believe that it is a motivated song with a nice sweet melody and singer’s voice… I feel so melancholy listening to it… BUT what??? Coz I don’t really get its meaning…lol… Poor listening!!! So all I believed about the song is 100% contrasting to its originated lyric… It’s not a bout motivated song to inspire us to love ourselves but ehhhh, it’s about offensive lyric that is sang to abuse ex’s feeling… And that is from a Man to his ex… and that man is Justine Bieber … The singer that I dislike so much since long time!!! I dislike him since he was a young boy… nahhh…. Being a young boy but too pervert…. =,=! I love that song coz I think it is good…hmm… lol I remember a quote from a 2015 movie, “The Peanuts”…., something like….[Do you love me coz it is me or coz who you believe it is me?] and this is my condition now… hehehe… Well, well… now he is a real...

This year of 2016, I have been to provinces several times up to now but I still feel missing it! I like provincial people… I know they aren’t all sincere coz whatever, we are still human but I love spending time there in provinces with them too. I love having breakfast there, the drinks, desserts and many more food there. The price is quite reasonable and the taste isn’t bad with much amount..lol. A little bit before the sunset, I love travelling around, seeing the rice field, the vegetables field, the lotus ponds, the stream, the palm trees, different more trees, the birds who are flying to find their nests… Look!!! There’re children who are trying to chase their animals back home… I love seeing their normal, their innocent life…Thus, I love being with my family, with my smallie kids and go for a walk nearby the riverside, get the fresh air, seeing the people with their different styles of exercise…. The city become silent and more silent until almost cannot find people on the ...

When I was young, I was always asked if what kind of job I would like to work for and I couldn’t think of one… When I graduated high school, I was asked again and I still couldn’t answer it… so my mother decided for me to be the teacher and assigned me to select major of English Literature… During my bachelor degree, I wanted to earn money by myself and lets my parents feeling a bit lighter per supporting me but to get a teaching job isn’t easy since I was just a junior one, so I applied for Sales Person instead and I passed… Being as sales person almost 2 years was just so terrible… so I changed to be purchasing staff and it was boring just was with it around 8 months that I changed again to be a part of HR Department, a Recruiter.... The Recruitment job makes me feel happy to work with for over 5 years counting up to today. Unfortunately, I feel inconvenient with it recently… It seems nothing quite different from being a sales staff…. Target to get people… I want t...

Of course, I think it gonna be okay even without him since it is not the first mission of my hubby to abroad. Oh, I forget to mention, he is on mission to Pakistan…. I know it won’t be unsafe everywhere there but I’m still worried… Well, he won’t go any long there, just one week but we all, the whole family with two cars, go to send him off…lol…such a warm family! The first day without him, everything becomes so messy around me… It is normal for me to do all the tasks when he is not around such as take care my both sons with their everything; including meal, milk, bathing, dressing, sleeping, baby bottle cleaning, clothes washing but it is much more because I and my both sons get sick…Oh God! My both sons vomit so much until there is no more to vomit from their stomach and me is completely in a fever! I’m headache, dizzy, teary eyes, hot & cold and running nose too…hmmm…. Anyway, my both sons are better now…except me but I still feel blessed for their better condition! Ohh, my...

Today, I go to riverside with my family. The weather is nicely but it is strange since people are so crowded even it is just normal working day. I try to go through people and see what is happening and I see they are feeding the fishes, very big amount of fishes!!!  So I take my bread and tear them into small pieces to throw into the water. However, one fish that is in front of me, it won’t eat at all but just looking at me… It is a lot bigger than other fishes… “What is this fish??? Ehhh, big…feeling similar…”, I talk to myself but nearby uncle turns to look at that fish and shouts, “Wow!!!! Dolphin, right? Dolphin! Dolphin!” Everyone turns to that fish direction and it is real Dolphin! Because of this chaos, that Dolphin is scared and tries to escape. I try to follow it…”Stop, stop!!!” I try to follow it until it reaches a place near the port, it stops and vanishes. Wahhhhhhhh, Dolphin ghost???? I’m trying to look into the river and find it…. Suddenly, a person knocks my bac...