RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

I’m walking along the natural street in SihanoukVille while is hugging his hand and we meet two beautiful ladies there. They are the actresses and my man is a popular actor, the very handsome guy^^ while he is wearing this white shirt, he looks damn sexy! :* This incident meeting is such a greeting time to them; especially, those ladies. They come to greet my man very closely. They remind my man about their performing scene of kissing and even persuade my man to do it there by the reason of beautiful scenery to fit with kissing… Fuck you bitches!!!  Oh well… my man seems stupid or what?? Coz he agrees to kiss with the first lady who persuades him; however, he rejects the second lady by excusing as it doesn’t seem appropriate…. “Pervert!!! Why can’t you think so since the first????”         I don’t feel good at all and stare at him angrily… he smiles too charming to me and introduce me to those ladies… “By the way, she is my woman! Sh...

No matter how beautiful the fresh flower is; it is going to wither and soon to fade away… No matter how paradise look like for the spring is; it is going to be replaced by another season once time arrives…. Just like me; I felt so lonely coz people around me are discriminating me indirectly or even directly. There are some generous people who come to my life and brighten my daily smile… However, it is very sad coz when their time arrives; they’ve gone one by one… Oh well, they didn’t die, I meant they left me… I felt so miserable; I went to a pagoda and met the monk I always trust the most. I shared him my story and he explained me a lot but he ended up by a remarkable phrase... “PLEASE stop putting yourself in sorrow; please stop being happy coz they treat you well or being sad coz they are doing something unsatisfied to you since all of all; your happiness is belong to you, yourself! Please stop being glad or sad coz of other! Please learn to create your own...

In my swimming suit and I’m hugging my toy, walking around the swimming pool in a WaterLand Resort…. The pool there is so beautiful; the water is quite blue as the sea… There is a large slipping board that we can enjoy by slipping ourselves into that pool… However, I don’t dare to play since I don’t know how to swim. Suddenly, a few people call my name and they are my colleagues… They call me to play in that pool with them… I smile and slip myself by turning my head down and it’s going quite fast into that water…. Wahhhh, I’m so excited!!!! Hahhaha…. A colleague then suggests me to slip by my legs down first is more fun since I can smell that blue water when I fall down… I wonder if this water may have smell as the sea since it looks so much alike the sea… With the doubt of how it smells, I do as he suggests… Do you know what I get? Oh well well, it smells nothing as the sea but a chemical smell… Maybe this blue water is gotten from chemical substance and what is annoying me m...

I remember I was quite upset last few weeks but now, I am feeling back to a stable state. However, from the time I was feeling so deep down, I admitted I did think of suicide... I shared this feeling to one of my bestie just in case I decided to do it, at least there is her who knew why I was doing that... (though, she didn't get as I was serious... hahaha) I didn't think any further but wanted to commit that bad sin on myself once I only discussed with my heart... I didn't ask for ideas from other parts of my whole body, especially my brain! Well, my heart is such a messenger... It may deliver what I discussed with her to everyone of my body's parts. You know what??? They all must be so disappointed, they must be so sad... From that day of my bad thinking, I started to be sick day to day... I got headache most of days, I feel hurt from my my legs, my arms, my hip, I caught bad cold... someday was feeling dizzy, no power in body... I cannot eat well... I feel most of...