My Beloved Baby BOY

Currently, my baby boy already grows up until the age of around 1 year and 1 month. He's about to walk and learn to speak as well...hehehe...so adorable!!! He's my everything-my soul-my encouragement-my reason to strive for living- a reason which lets me see the world is still kind to me.... His smile bright my way and push me to smile again...His chuckle make me feel excited and feel bless... I dooooooo love him from his up to down... hair to toe... ^^ :*

** His pics in this November  13 (around 1 year and 1 month):

 ** In September 2013:

** Since February until August 2013:

** From born till around 3 months:

My Neighbor’s Unexpected Big Sad

It’s about my neighbor’s family; they are in a very difficult condition which they require to live in a small house together with around 10 members. They have been fighting a lot to strive for living. Every day, all the family members need to go out to work for supporting family but their works could not earn much to support their big family. They are sellers at market, Motorbike driver and worker. Actually, I’ve heard and also have seen a lot about them coz we are living near each other more than 10 years. They have an eldest member who is their mother; their children’ grandma. There used to have a Church’s volunteer staff; plus some organizations have come to help them; however, they can’t just help this family to always live well but just a short time. Their life has been down much more than up. That grandma while she still has some ability; she also helped to earn money until one day, she fell into a sickness which called Tuberculosis. It damaged her inner system from time to time; though, she once became better since there’s another organization that came to support and cure her. Her Children stop letting her to work but just stay home and take care her grandchildren. She’s around her house with other neighbors and talking with them in her relaxing time. Except currently, she seems starting sick again but it’s not too bad. Her children still go out to work and her grandchildren all are grow up and go to school. She is staying home alone.... Until around 2pm today, one of her children came from his work of Motorbike driver and go inside the house to find her....He got a very very very big surprised!!!!!! SHE DIED!!!!!​​ Oh God!!! I’m quite surprised and sad to hear so as well. She was dying alone without anyone of her relatives were around....How hard; how rough she met....No one stands by her side and light the candle to bright for a way for her to leave this world...I almost can’t believe this...such a very pathetic.... Yeah, we can’t stop the dead time but at least it shouldn’t be in this too sad condition....such a lonely and isolated moment... Her children would feel deeply sorry and mournful for not caring enough on her and lets her there alone... A lot of children there are but seem equal to nothing.... What’s a tragic...
May she rest in peace and if there is a next life- may she meet a better life than her past life...!!!

Parents in law are still the Parents in law

Before my marriage a year and after the marriage almost two years, I kept believing that my parents in law are the best in world since they showed a lot of loves to me; they care of me and they worry of me. I was always appreciating myself for this luck which I don’t think it would happen in most people. My parents in law are Chinese-Cambodian but they respected Chinese culture much more than Cambodian and I used to think that they would treat daughter in law cheaply as in most of Chinese family. Though, they were not so to me in these 3 years time. However, they love their blooded son very deeply and I know it’s more than me but it’s fine since they already has been the best one to me. Until recently, I realized what is the reality. Actually, I don’t have any intension to cause argument. I only called to my husband for some little thing but I ended up asking him when he would come back home. He didn’t answer but just said, he didn’t know... after he said... it’s ok....it’s okay...and hang up the phone. I couldn’t accept this ignorance...this answer and kept calling him while he did the same thing. I stopped calling then. I wanna end this disappointment there. Nahhhh....it didn’t end at all....he told his birth mom at the same day that I tried to drag him into ashamed in front of his friends...his mom told her husband...What’s happened then? My father in law called to my birth mom and warned us that “If I want to continue living with his son until in the further future, I must understand what to do first”!!! What did he meant??? He would force us to divorce and take his son back???????????? Oh my!!!!! Such a bad alert to me!!! I did nothing big nor mistake but he kept it serious as his son said...Please be fair enough as being parents! Is it wrong for asking husband about exact time to return home???? Obviously, I and his son married very legally...and his family was the one who came to ask my family for getting me into their daughter in law... I have never had any relationship with his son before; even though, he still could throw words in this way to my family....how come??? I didn’t abduct their son to become my husband....nahhh....it’s quite a dump hell alert to me!!! Just these words, they already deduced most of love I always have for them...!!! That’s why I have another belief...My birth parents are the best no matter what happens...and Parents in law are still the parents in law....They can’t just love me even a half of their love to their own blooded child....  

Immature

Buddha!!! It’s been hundred times I guess which I keep complaining about him. I don’t mean to just keep catching anyone mistakes especially people I store in my heart and soul. There’re many things I forgive to those people I love though sometime it makes me sick quite damn. However, it’s mostly his mistake. His action drags me into anger. Do you know what’s happened? Just I tend to play around with him; he stares at me....he yells at me and he even shouts loudly to complain to my mom. He orders mom to do something seem very ridiculous to me. He asks mom to return a product back to market once I tell him to pay because he’s the one who ordered it. How come? How come we could return anything back to market in case it’s in a good condition? More, it’s just an ordinary market...how come? Even though it is supermarket, I don’t think we can do so...how immature he is?! Actually, I’m just kidding with him...only this small amount of money, it didn’t hurt me. Whatever, he takes it seriously...kinda childish he is! Most of time, I feel I’m more mature than him while I’m only in my mid twenties and he’s in his around mid thirties... He should understand more about around environment...we has been together long time enough, can’t he understand me if I’m serious or what? Once he’s not sure about me; it’s fine, he should deal with this issue or his doubt patiently. I never think that a man who already got married and even has a child, still could act that way...First, I exactly mean nothing but is playing...but now I’m furious for sure!

I & our son!

He & our son!