Work Difficulty

While we are working under someone, dealing with many different people…not our own business, for sure, there are thousands things that make us almost non-breathing. It’s called pressure. Is it the culture of work? Hmmm…it should be so. Some said sales & marketing is a hard task while some said customer service is harder, always deal with complains and solutions. Other think, Human Resource or recruitment maybe better since we only need to recruit staff but let’s believe that all kind of works are full of pressure…. To my own experience, recruitment is interesting but quite hart to deal with.

Since I start working in a recruitment agency, I meet a lot of problems. I’m a fresh one for this skill, never had experience before. When I start in this field, I need to learn and face many things. I need to learn how to interview while this only use with English language but I’m not very good with pronunciation, still in a limitation. Do you know what happen to me? The ones who have a very good English comprehension, they are teasing me, they repeatedly talk about the words I get wrong with….in fact, I’m so embarrassed but later, I get much improving and even stronger than before. I know the way to deal with this kind of people. They may have good heart to teach me but they should use a better way, not the way that make me down so. After that, I am assigned to handle some positions. I meet problem again as I don’t have many network, so it’s hard to find candidates that fit with the job description. Moreover, most of the posts that I handle are the low positions, low salary or if a bit higher positions, mostly it would be for working at the provinces. It’s not really easy to fill those positions. Some positions, I can find candidates but they are not selected when they already met with my clients (because of multi cases). I spent time for nothing but need to find more. In case I could find more and get success but unluckily they cannot stay with my client until the end of probation, I need to find more to replace with free of charge. I got tired. More than that, while I could get success but the salary is not a high one, so we cannot charge much…then, I will hear someone said “hmmm… just a small amount of money!” awww….how come that person could speak so? Doesn’t that person think this word hurt me? I’m also human, I have heart, if cannot always but should be sometime that person should think of my feeling. I get success but I’m not really praised. I get disappointed but just keep silent. How a pressure it is!

I want to complain a lot but I can’t because the culture of work in Cambodia said, “If you think you can patient to work, that’s okay. Anyway, if you don’t really satisfied, no need to complain but just leave here”. A lot of unfair things happen. Sometime, all staff use working time to do some personal things but since they sit in the good locations, no one knows what they are doing. This is what I want to raise up, my seat is in a public one, everyone can see whatever I do on my PC… then, at one day, I’m really bored and I’m careless to check some entertainment website… you know, I got warn, much warn from the management. I got much blaming words indirectly. I know I’m wrong to use working time to get something so but why that person blames only me? How about other? They’re also…just that person doesn’t see... Hmmm…. I’m wrong, I should get this punish…but it should not only me cause I’m only one among many! In addition, some of my teamwork are too much. They did much bad to me. I always get suffer from their act and words….working here; I feel I don’t have much value… I feel I’m not really welcomed… I want to stop working there many times; still I’m always denied by my mother and my special. They both may not understand of my internal-sickness…my feeling get suffered. I do describe what I am difficult with but they said it’s not serious enough for me to stop. :’(

Fortunately, this place’s also the place which teaches me a lot of thing to improve my past-weak-points. Thus, there are also many good people here… some staff are very good people. They do understand much of other. Later, they become my good friends. I even found two more closed friends from here. They all are the reasons I can continue to stay here longer. However, why this good thing is so fast to end? Currently, they are all separately and go to different places. Some get scholarship for studying abroad, some get new better offered-job and some are busy with their study and stop from here. As the result, I’m now alone in this recruitment company.  I don’t think I can continue here…. I better stay home and relax a few months first. After everything’s going fine with my side, I maybe can find another new career…

Quit work, this is not really a good choice…. I would have no money to pay anything….but it would be the best choice to cure my internal one.

Clothing Shop & Chinese People

At break time for lunch today, I left my office and went to visit my sister at her working place, clothing shop near Toul Tompong Market. My sister had something to give me and that’s cookies. lol… She knows I love eating it. While I arrived, it was so quiet because her colleague, A Mouy went home and there were no clients too. We were a lot discussing and sharing about 15 minutes, and then many clients came into the shop while A Mouy also arrived. They both started to welcome clients.

Firstly, a foreigner came in. She just went around several minutes and went back. After, two Cambodian people arrived. One was a man whom needed a T-shirt which had to be the same to his T-shirt but there’s no in that shop. Still, my sister talked to him sweetly and recommended him to another shop. Another one was a woman. She wanted a man’s trousers that was made from a cloth, called PALOUR but that has never had in this shop. About 10 minutes later, they both left. The last clients whom came in, while I was still there, were a group of Chinese, 3 men and a young lady. They were quite active; they talked and discussed a lot with their team, my sister and a Mouy. They asked about multi brands, many available sizes; especially, they made the shop messy with the piles of clothes since they once interested in a brand or size and immediately change their preferable. Three of them kept taking some shirts and shorts of different brands, comparing and went into the changing room for trying. They did like this several times and finally, they dropped those clothes down and complained with many reasons… “hmmm, it’s too loose…hay, how so small is it? Eh, any other colors? Wow! So expensive! If could be discount 15%, I may consider…” As a result of about 25 minutes passed, they bought nothing and left the shop. The real reason, they may be here for visiting only... But why they are so? They should not let other so busy because of them. If they have no plan to buy anything, just go around and have a look would be enough.

While those Chinese clients were in the shop, my sister and her friend, A Mouy were much teasing each other and laughing. They both gossiped the clients in Khmer language….oh, should not be said as Gossip since they were speaking in front of the clients but how could they understand as they only know English and Chinese language. Lolzzzz….. They both said it’s rarely for the Chinese clients whom decided to buy their shop’s products but mostly they just came here for fun or maybe in purpose to make the shop’s staff getting busy only. They would be too free... She and A Mouy needed to prepare many things in shop again after those Chinese clients left, work-hard but no any good result. They both seemed tired whiles not satisfied at all with this kind of clients but still kept smiling and talking with them.

My sister and A Muoy generally love joking and laughing, I saw they both acted happily… In fact, they today were so worried of their working performance; the selling’s result. Not many clients walked-in today and mostly are annoying Chinese. I remembered when I came back my office, it was 1:15 PM already; they just could sell and got money around 14 Dollars. They would be blamed by their hateful boss! They don’t really like their boss because they faced many problems and pressure from boss. If there’s less income, they both will be required to join in meeting room and get scolding. They very much want to move, still it is not so easy to get a stable job currently. So they always try to calm down and be patient to work there. Dealing with people, it would be seen as an easy one but in reality, it such a hard task if that people never care of their partner’s feeling. However, life is for struggling. Just keep fighting!

How cheerful they are! :P

I do love Raining!

National Road 5,

Phnom Penh, Cambodia

January 30, 2012

To my dear,

Hello from Cambodia! How have you been doing so far? Do hope you are keeping fine. Hay, this is my first letter to you! Do you think it is the ancient style for writing letter to friend so? lol, I’m feeling so too; however, I still want to write it to share something to this reader…

Today, in the morning was quite a nice cold morning which I would love to have and to see. That was raining! Hehehe…my favorite one! I left my house to work since 7:40 AM until at 8:10 AM, I just reached the work-place. Riding motor under the rain was so cold and we had to ride slower than usual, took much time in a cold atmosphere but that remained such a sweet one to me. I don’t know why rain-drop is highly powerful to me…still, I always feel fresh under the rain, feeling cold but I love feeling so. It’s a sharp environment to make me excited and shaking… Under the rain, if I’m sad, I will be immediately crying. After that, that sadness would be releasing… if I’m in a good emotion, I would even feel more and more romantic… I wonder how the sweetest it is if I could have a chance to get such a warm kiss under the rain. Do you think so??? :D

Of course, raining made me missing someone….that is…..you! I miss you my dear oversea friend! Hearing the rain drop just like hearing your voice which telling me he’s my man…Mr. RAIN! And he’s coming to visit me and satisfy me…hahahaha… I and you have been talking and sharing a lot about the topic of RAIN… I feel so strange….I think you just left Cambodia in a short time…just like a few weeks... but the exact one, you have gone for abroad several months already. Hmmm, I don’t know if I can get the same thing from you or not since we may value different things but I wanna let you know you are in the list of my good and best friends! So you deserve a missing one from me…

Short time we have been colleagues, short time we have met face to face and really short time we have been making friends…but you drew the meaning to me! Short time we have been together but I do hope that’s long time we would remember each other! 

Raining will always remind me of you! Miss you strangely this full day!

Good day,

Piseth ;)

you make me fresh, Rain!

A Little Girl

There’s a little girl whom around 12 years old, named Rella. She is living in a small village which mostly cover by forest in one Asian country. Her house is a wooden house but not modern at all. It’s just a very simple house with no any decoration and locates on a large land.

Rella’s living in a common villager life with her family while her father is a temporary officer for the public sector and her mother is a housewife. She has a sister, 10 years old and a brother whom is around a few months old. Surrounding her house, there are a lot of trees such as coconut trees, banana trees, jack trees, guavas, mango trees and many other kinds of vegetables. Her family could take those fruits for sales as well but those cannot help this family to get rich, just to support some small part of family. However, Rella loves her family, her house environment and the way she and her family live in, the optimistic one. In front of her house has a large campus with some kinds of flowers and plants. Mostly, in the afternoon, there would have several children in the village come to visit her house and play with her and her sister such as acting as the food sellers, the princess, the mother & child and so on.

In the raining season, Rella’s house always meets some headache problems such as the water would sink her land and the road or sometime the rain drop would splash into her house via the strong wind. Although the rain always makes her family busy and difficult but the rain is one of her favorite views. She loves seeing the rain drop. She loves experiencing under the rain or touching it. Raining is the best view for her with her house environment. When the rain drops weaker, Rella always opens the window, sits near it and satisfy with outside view. She would be smiling for looking at it. That gives her a fresh feeling. Raining makes the nature very lively and also fresh. She loves the nature; especially the nature after raining. When the rain ended, there would have many sounds around her house. It normally is the frog’s or the bird’s voice. Still, she loves listening to the bird voices. It’s an interesting thing to her. She would feel very happy if she could keep sitting and concentrating on her around nature while or after raining with the presences of birds’ voice. That’s what she wishes to see. Thus, that’s her preferable temperature too, the cold one. This kinda view has a very strong basic which already built deeply into her memory. She would not be able to forget it at all. Her house view in raining usually comes up to remind her all the time that she sees the rain drop. She would really get along well with the ones whom are also interested in the raining view as her since she loves sharing her experience and love listening to other telling-stories as well. She’s very good at imagination. While there is anyone telling her any stories, simultaneously she is listening; she’s also turning those words into activities. That’s her skill. That's the reason she could always understand other well since she’s good at putting herself into any situations. She’s maybe a strange girl either as she loves being in dream. Every night, she wishes she would have a dream… whatever dreams, she doesn’t mind since she thinks dream is just like a story….she loves watching movie and reading novels. She’s deep in romanticism and sentiment. Moreover, Rella sees the world in the positive way, that’s her habit. Her parents sometime get worry of her while they don’t want her to imagine much. They want her to live in the real society, the real environment but not the imagination world. However, it is a hard task to change her. She was born with this behavior… She’s careless to protect herself; she thinks everyone’s good to her since she’s generally kind and keeps warm to other. She thinks they’re all her friends. This is what her parents concern much. They think she’s easily to be suffered because the real society is challenging, cruel and full of jealousy.

Talking about imagination, for sure that is not really a good one to have and some people may think it is silly. But imagination makes life beautifully. Meanwhile, some people can use the imagination skill to estimate any problems before happening. So, at least they already think of solutions to react with those problems. Then, isn’t it a good idea if we keep living in the life we love, the imaginative option but limit it and use it in the proper way to get its effectiveness?

Surrounding People!

Last weekend, Saturday and Sunday were the days that made me know how very valuable my whole family is! Of course, I spent those both days staying in my narrow room and mostly was alone since morning until evening as my husband was outside with his busy tasks. Firstly, I thought it should not be the problem to me since my room is small but nice…there is air-con, television, sweet bed and computer with internet access.While there is internet, I expected I would not be bore at all. Internet seems the best tool to get exploring and let’s time runs faster. However, the situation’s going differently from my expectation.

That weekend days brought me alot of feeling. I know more as being with other people is a very good environment and even know more, being with family and special one is extremely the precious and appreciatory thing. Although my room could comfort me well, internet could give me everything I want to know and the bed is always waiting to give me a nice sleep with the cold wind from air-con but I turned too bored of them when they stayed long hours with only me. They could entertain me only the start. This comfortable environment soon became the indescribable atmosphere. I felt afraid of that silently, dislike of being cold but would not turn off the air-con or it may badly hot. My inner feeling’s scaring me, I was so much afraid of outdoor noise…afraid of the door-knocking sound or even the soft songs which I heard just as it was very far away but it was flying via the wind to my room. I had no more feelings to know anything from internet, no feeling to explore more and lose my favor to sing any songs in Youtube, no interest to chat, sharing or playing facebook. It seemed that’s not me.

In fact, I had choices to choose…many ways I could push those boring feeling away from me. I could go out for a walk for releasing stress. I could go to my parents’ house for visiting them even that’s a far distant from my current house but it doesn’t matter. I could go for eating something as I wished. I could dress beautifully and go shopping, buying anything as required…but the problem is that I didn’t choose any of them because even if I go, I still go to those places alone. Only the last choice I chose, continued to stay in my room without other presence. I miss my special one! Thus, starvation simultaneously interfered my time. At that time, not only boring but also hungry started to be with me. Immediately, I turned to be really missing my parents and siblings, especially my mother! I wanted to see her very soon! While I was staying with her and my family, I rarely knew the word BORE but always a noisy family. I never have willing to complain about food since I could eat whenever I wished. There usually had vegetable, meat, eggs and fruits in the refrigerator.  Being with her, just a very simple local food but it’s still so delicious… I missed it! I did miss that time which already became the past while my current time, I already got married and live with my husband in a flat.

Because of being bored, hungry, lonely and my missing to the special people, I later became as a little girl, around 6 years old whom is weak, too weak. Normally, when she meets those feeling, what will happen to her? She would cry…cry for complaining and cry for help….yeah, I was so! No one could help me at that time since I didn’t dare to help myself at all but leaded my own more deeply into those feeling. Fortunately, some intelligence still exists to my thought. I still remembered the way to meet my mom quickly! That’s CALLING! I called her! She rescued me by unintentionally. She didn’t know what happened to me or I was crying since I told her my voice was changed because of cold. That was the excuse to her question of why my voice seemed really strange. More, she said she so missed and loved me even more. She asked me to visit her…she talked a lot and all she talked to me were what I expected to hear from her! I felt better! Sure, what I wished to get in that situation was warm…the warm from honest heart of my special people…and I finally got it…from my beloved mom! Love you, mom! :*

Going through this above experience, I learnt one more lesson. I now exactly value much more to the presence of people around me and especially my whole family. I need them more and more than treasure. For me, the highest expensive things cannot just a little bit in comparing to them. Even if I am offered to live in a very luxury house or room and get all the best serving but if I cannot go out of that place, cannot meet my family, my husband or any friends and required to stay alone…Just a few months later…I would be changed into a lady whom seen as always keeps smiling, sings multi-songs and maybe naked as well…Why??? Coz she already became an insane person! lol

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នារីម្នាក់​កំពុង​បើក​រថយន្ត​លឿន​ដូ​ច​ហោះ​ ត្រូវ​​ប៉ូលិស​ចរាចរ​​ស្ទាក់​ហៅ​ឱ្យ​ឈប់​ រួច​សួរ​ក​ប័ណ្ណ​បើក​បរ​ព្រោះ​​បើក​លឿន​ហួស​ល្បឿន​កំណត់ តែ​នារី​​ម្ចាស់​រថយន្ត​​តប៖
-​ជម្រាប​លោក​ប៉ូលិស ពេល​នេះ​ខ្ញុំ​គ្មាន​ប័ណ្ណ​បើក​​​បរ​បង្ហាញ​​លោក​ទេ ព្រោះ​គេ​ដក​​ហូត​វា​ពេល​​​ខ្ញុំ​​បើក​រថយន្ត​​ទាំង​ស្រ​វឹង​​​​​​​​ស្រា​​​ ​​​​ជា​លើក​ទី​​បួន​បាត់​ទៅ​ហើយ​ ។​
ភ្នាក់​ងារ​ប៉ូលិស​​មើល​មុខ​នាង​​​រួច​​ចង្កត់​សំឡេង៖
-​អី​យ៉ា, រឿង​នេះ​កាន់​តែ​មិន​ស្រួល​ហើយ ។ អ៊ីចឹង​យក​លិខិត​រថយន្ត​មក​មើល ?
-​លិខិត​ទិញ​រថយន្ត​​​អត់​មាន​ដូច​គ្នា ​​ព្រោះ​រថយន្ត​​មួយ​គ្រឿង​នេះ ​មិន​មែន​របស់​ខ្ញុំ​ផង​​ ។ ខ្ញុំ​ប្លន់​នៅ​រមណី​យដ្ឋាន​មួយ។ សព​ម្ចាស់រថយន្ត​នៅ​ក្នុង​ឃ្លុប​រថយន្ត​មិន​​​ទាន់​មាន​​ពេល​យក​ទៅ​ចោល​នៅ​ឡើយ​ទេ ។ ​
ភ្នាក់​ងារ​​ប៉ូលិស​​​ភ្ញាក់​​ថយ​ក្រាក ​ដៃ​ម្ខា​ង​​​ត្រៀម​​​ដក​​កាំ​ភ្លើង​​​ ដៃ​ម្ខាង​ទៀត​លើ​វិទ្យុ​ទាក់​ទង​​ហៅ​កម្លាំង​ជំនួយ ។ មិន​យូរ​ប៉ុន្មាន​​​​​លេច​ប៉ូលិស​​ចរាចរ​១០​នាក់​ទៀត​មក​ដល់ ។ លោក​ប្រ​ធាន​​ក្រុម​ដើរ​ចូល​ដោយ​ប្រុង​ប្រ​យ័ត្ន​ ដៃ​ស្តាំ​គាត់​ដាក់​ក្បែរ​កាំ​ភ្លើង​​​សៀត​​នៅ​ចង្កេះ​​​ជា​និច្ច​ ខណៈ​​ភ្នែក​ទាំង​គូ​ពិនិត្យ​មើល​កាយ​​វិ​កា​​រ​នាង​​​ជាប់​រហូត​​ឱ្យ​តែ​មិន​ស្រួល​បាញ់​ភ្លាម ។ លុះ​​ទាំង​សង​ខាង​នៅ​ឃ្លាតពី​គ្នា​ប្រ​ហែល​​ប្រាំ​ម៉ែត្រ​​​គាត់​និ​យាយ​៖
-​ភ្នាក់​​​ងារ​​ខាង​ណោះ​​រាយ​ការណ៍​​​ថា ក្នុង​ឃ្លុប​ឡាន​អ្នក​នាង​មាន​​​សព​មនុស្ស​​ សូម​នាង​​បើក​ឃ្លុប​ឡាន​ឱ្យ​​ពួក​ខ្ញុំ​ត្រួ​តពិនិត្យ​​​បន្តិច​ ។
នារី​​ម្ចាស់​រថយន្ត​ប្រ​ញាប់​ប្រ​ញាល់​​ធ្វើ​តាម​​ការ​ស្នើ​សុំ​ ​បើក​ឃ្លុប​រថយន្តទាំង​មុខ​ក្រោយ ។ ប្រ​ធានក្រុមប៉ូលិស​ចរាចរ​​បើក​ភ្នែ​​ក្រ​ឡង់​ ព្រោះ​អត់​ឃើញ​អ្វី សូ​ម្បី​ឈាម​មួយ​ដំណក់​ក៏​គ្មាន​ផង​ កុំ​ថា​ឡើយ​ដល់​​សព​មនុស្ស ។ ​ដោយមិនឃើញអីសោះ គាត់​​មិនអស់ចិត្ត ក៏បន្ត​៖​
-​ខ្ញុំ​​សុំ​មើល​ប័ណ្ណ​បើក​បរ​ និង​លិខិត​ទិញ​រថយន្ត​ ។
នារី​ម្ចាស់​​រថយន្ត​បើក​កា​បូប​លូក​យកលិខិត​ទាំង​​ពី​រ​ជូន​ប៉ូលិស​​តាម​ការ​ស្នើ​សុំ ។ នាង​បង្ហាញ​​អា​កប្បករិយា​ធម្ម​តា ហាក់​ដូច​​​អត់​ដឹង​​មាន​រឿង​អ្វី​​កើតសោះ​ ។ ម្តង​នេះ​លោក​ប្រ​ធាន​ក្រុម​ប៉ូលិស​ចរាចរ​​​​បន្ទាប​សំឡេង៖
-សូម​អ្នកនាង​អភ័យ​ទោស​ផង​ ​ខ្ញុំ​មិន​​ដឹង​​គួរ​និយាយ​យ៉ាង​មិច​ទេ ។ លោក​ខាង​ណោះ​រាយ​ការណ៍​​​ប្រាប់​ខ្ញុំ​​ថា អ្នក​​នាង​អត់​មាន​ប័ណ្ណ​បើក​បរ​​​ អត់​​មាន​លិខិត​​ទិញ​រថយន្ត មិន​តែ​ប៉ុណ្ណោះ​ក្នុង​ឃ្លុប​រថយន្ត​អ្នក​​នាង​មាន​សព​មនុស្សទៀត​ ។
នារី​ម្ចាស់​រថយន្ត​សើ​ច​ញាក់​ស្មា​បន្តិច៖
-ប្រ​ហែល​គាត់​រាយ​ការណ៍​ជម្រាប​​លោក​ថា ខ្ញុំ​បើក​រថយន្ត​លើស​​ល្បឿន​​​កំណត់​​ទៀត ​មែនទេ?

Reference: http://kohsantepheapdaily.com.kh/article/32805.html

One Case of Married Life (Short Story)

There's a woman who has been living in the life of being a married-lady for just 28 days if counting from her wedding day. Many good times she and her husband are living in and that’s really nice. However, they still had arguments or disappointment sometime but those were just the small ones. She will consider that small arguments as the biggest ones, why? Because she won’t allow to appear any other bad bigger arguments.

Well, since they start living together and become the real spouse, what the wife has heard more often is her husband’s insistence of having child. He wants child. Of course, she also wants to have baby but that’s not the right time yet. The wife has twice times already with the injection to prevent the cancer of womb. The first and second time only need the distant of time for one month but the third one, need the distance for six months. So she needs to prevent herself from having baby until she will already get the third injection. All types of cancer are very dangerous; it will take one’s life away without noticed period. So before getting married, her parents especially her mum, told her to get this prevention. Although, her husband said, “it doesn’t matter, our parents or grandparents, they all didn’t have any prevention of this kinda cancer but they are still healthy”. Sure, the elder generation, they had no prevention of it but that should not compare the past time to the current one. The atmosphere in this present is such dirty, not a like the previous long time. Many may understand this, a lot of strange diseases happen and it’s hard to find the method to cure. The wife thought that “at least she tries to prevent it when she knows about it, that’s better than she knows but ignores it. So that, she can avoid this cancer. In contrast, if she doesn't care of it and it happens to her, she will regret”.

It still happens again and again of her husband’s request (baby). He has a few friends whom after they got married, they so much want the child but it is unsuccessfully. They cannot have child. So her husband got this affection and he’s now very afraid of having no child. He even used to tell her as if she cannot have the baby for him; he would have love-affair with another lady for the child-purpose. The wife knows he is kidding and he also said that’s just joke but it gives her the pressure. By one day morning, the husband said couple life would be meaningless or no values if they are living without the child presence. It gives the wife more pressure. She’s more in sad. As he’s always requesting her to have baby, there should depend on many reasons, she thought. She feels he decided to marry her is not because he’s so love her but that would because of having child. Another reaosn, he may get surrounding pressure and scare for having no child or he may love and want only his child more than her or her health. She wonders if all the men are so too... Marrying for only the child-purpose? :’(

Anyway, she had committed already, she must become a very good wife whom has an open-minded and understanding with much more offering or forgiving than claiming for something, then she needs to reconsider this. She later decided to accept her husband request. She won’t deny it more! She thinks, in case she will have baby before her injection day, no need to get that last injection since even she goes to get it but it’s still not effective. In contrast, if she has period in the late month of her last injection, so she won’t have baby yet, next she can go to have this final prevention. She knows, it is a very high risk to her health but it is the best solution, she guessed. Thus, this disease also rarely to happen, she promises herself she will try her best to have a good care of her health and will always go to get her health-checked every year. If that kind of cancer still happens to her, she will consider it as her bad luck, her dangerous fate. Only this decision could help her husband to feel better. She told herself she should stop thinking about that prevented-injection.This is maybe what she can and should do now.

Family happiness is her happiness!!