RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

The moment I start thinking about my future is the moment I start torturing myself… Coz I have no plan nor goal… I don’t know what I am good at… I don’t understand myself… I don’t get it at all… WHY? Since first I believed I had skills and talents… I could see my own potential which was greater than my circles… There were the eras I leaded people… But then, I remain at the same level… But then, they became higher than me… Better level than me… I started to lose hope day by day… I started to doubt… I felt very unfair… Nothing has been changed for my condition… I ended up being in my current circumstance… I know nowhere I am, I know nowhere I should go, And I know nowhere I should start again, I gain no power, I gain no hopes, Yet, I gain my upset mood… A smile of mine is faded at the moment I dare to think about my future… It is so blur… yeah, quite blur! Many times which I often enc...

“I’m under the snow… It is so cold… aiiii… I need cuddling…. I mean from a man… XD” Suddenly, I hear a song along the wind which is blowing in my bedroom from the window… “Jinga bell…. Jinga bell… jinga eh uh a way….” ; some kids are singing in such an incorrect lyric of Christmas’s song… ---- I smile with my closed eyes ----- Then, my body is shaked by little hands and waking me from the dream of being under the snow and the desire to get a man… lol Little Boy: Mommmy!! Mommmmy!!! Get up! Get up please! Me: (I’m lazily opening my eyes and see my youngest boy…) yeah baby… o___O’ Big Boy: Mommy! Faster please! I wanna go to school early! Me: Why my boy? Big Boy: To play with my friends… hahahah…. =_____=^ I did think he may have exam… A short conversation only between we three; yet I feel so good, full of loves and joys. My favorite season arrives, the windy days… I got a chill dream… hehe… I heard my favorite song of greeting season… This year i...

[Verse 1] I heard that you're settled down That you found a girl and you're married now I heard that your dreams came true Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light [Pre-Chorus] I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it I had hoped you'd see my face And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over [Chorus] Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you too "Don't forget me," I beg "I'll remember," you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead [Verse 2] You know how the time flies Only yesterday was the time of our lives We were born and raised in a summer haze Bound by the surprise of our glory days [Pre-Chorus] ...

My smallest boy of 3 years old still doesn’t sleep yet. It is quite silent in my village from this mid night; all we could hear is the barking sound from my neighbors’ dogs… Well, in our house, there are only me, my big son and my this little cutie. Their dad is on business trip to abroad while the big boy fell asleep a few hours already. I cannot sleep before my smallest boy anyway but I always accompany him until he falls asleep first that I can too since he is so young… Immediately, my little boy goes to sit in front of the mirror and keeps smiling! I’m so scared for his reaction, he calls me to see with him and he points into the mirror… I close my eyes and drag him to hug… He pushes me out and goes back to his seat… He still smiles happily in front of the mirror… It’s scary to me at this moment; yet I still want to know what it is. I go to sit next to him and look into the mirror but I see nothing strange. I ask him why does he smile? He points to the mirror again and spea...

It was three months I already spent my time in my current working place and it seem just a blink of eye! Though here didn’t give me such butterflies feeling in my stomach as my previous place, yet here is also beautiful enough to live with. People are kind and understanding with their warm treat to me. Mr. Mature is that nice to me too. When I first met Mr. Mature, he admired me and he indirectly told me to come here since I may have chance to be promoted… Then, I joined and I have been working with him… I got more and more appreciation directly, indirectly from my work… Even I often remind myself to not trust anyone words so much nor any promises, I still fell into his words and thought I was doing quite well. I was a bit proud I confessed… However, I yesterday found out something ridiculous… Regardless of Mr. Mature’s kind words to me; simultaneously, he reported to Mr. King (our top leader) a bit differently. He requests for a new comer since he thought I and my team see...

During these recently, I’m being around with many new people in my Greenland Empire. Of course, there were some days we had opposite opinions, yet there were many days we were getting along quite well. We talk, we share, we tease, we laugh from our fun time we often had together! They are: 1. Mr. King of Greenland Empire: he is warm, he is quite optimistic and of course, he is so caring with such a strong leadership. 2. Mr. After King: He is quite funny and super dirty mind! Hahaha… Well, I like him a lot and he is that rich in management capacity with entrepreneur perspective. 3. Mr. Mature: He is one of the management here too. He is alike a calm water while I at first was alike a throwing stone into that water which made it became turbulent… I just feel he was a bit swaying coz of me… Maybe because he is calm and positive while I am a bit aggressive and a bit negative… lol… And sometime, I even show him his thought isn’t on the same track with me… 4. Ms. Sweet:...

She is sexy, beautiful, seems quite smart and seducing! Lol I just got to know her and she is very straight forward. Her expression is extremely what she feels. Well, I love her a lot! I do love her! Hehe… AND She is Eva Rich, the sticker from Telegram Application. xD

My Dearly Girl, Are you getting better yet? Thank you for sharing me your sadness. We are meant to not only sharing the fun but also your tough time. I would love to hear and I hope you would also feel releasing from your stress… I got it of how you feel when all your circles are getting higher and higher while you are nothing much. You must feel so pity to your own life, mustn’t you? You would feel the life is just so unfair to you, right? You may also cry and ask WHY? Well, my dear… You know, there must be many people who only wish for a life like yours! That isn’t wrong to look up but please interpret it in positive way. You should look up of how people could be that high and you might start thinking of how you could adjust your life if you think it is not right yet. Please don’t look up and compare yourselves to them, blame yourselves and feel so sorry for yourselves! Different people, different fates we are. Don’t be mad and don’t expect because you and your fri...

I’ve met many unfortunate situations and I don’t think it comes to its end yet. However, I turned most of those heart-aching occurring into life lessons and I became stronger. I’m not the strongest woman, yet I’m better than my previous me and I do appreciate myself for choosing this way to move on. Recently, I tried something new which I had been so scared of… It should be something very ordinary to many people while it was tough to me and I used my all courage to do it… I’ve never ever once stayed alone at home from my this almost 30 years old, I’m afraid of those atmosphere which is no human around… Imagination could kill a person… lol… Especially, the one who is so scared of the ghost just like me… Thus, I neither travel to any far place alone… What if I get lost? Or what if I get abducted? I’m not the child from the millionaire’s family, yet I still could think this way… hehehe… Last weekend, it was a golden chance to test myself… All my family members had to go to join ...

There is a warm and wealthy family who is living comfortably. There are four family members, the parents and two children. The mother is the business woman and the father is the professional employee of a private company. The mother could earn quite remarkably from her business and she never need any support from her husband to their family. She is wise and a strong lady. The father could earn nicely as well and since his wife never asks any cents from him, he just keeps his earning. The both children never meet any obstacles in life, they could get what they wish for but they both are well educated from their school and especially, their mother, stay humble and friendly. One day, an unexpected tragic thing happens and damages the whole family’s happiness! The mother finds out the father has been betraying her and has the second wife. This is what she’s never ever imagined it could happen in her family. Thus, it is not a short period of relationship between them since they have a f...

1. Overall of Snake Frankly, I’m still in a blurry spot of where I can go and who I want to be… I’m still losing in a mysterious world of my life! Things I didn’t dare to get, I got offered and I rejected while I think I’m ready to get them, they stop coming to me! I’m seeking for the chance now… Well, only one thing I am sure I want so much is my beauty! Hehehe… I started spending in order to get a white skin of both my face and body… While I wanna get the surgery of my nose and my body too… I wanna be a slim sexy lady… hehe… I would manage on my diet first and try for exercising or if they don’t work on me, I would try to save and go to further action! This is all of what I am so clear I want to do in this year! xD 2. Quick Facts about Snake I love how they are describing “Quick facts about Snake”! Hehehe… I feel funny and of course, it is actually my personality… 3. Money & Career This is the most accurate one to me, I got the new...