RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

ព្រឹកមួយនាខែឧសភា ឆ្នាំ២០១២ ម៉ោង៨ព្រឹកហើយ ប្តីប្រពន្ធមួយគូនៅតែដេកមិនព្រមក្រោកសោះ។ ប្រពន្ធនិយាយទៅកាន់ប្តីទាំងដែលដៃកំពុងតែអោបប្តីឲ្យស្អិត …. ប្រពន្ធ៖ បងហា អួនដូចជានឹកសមុទ្រដល់ហើយ ចង់ទៅលេង (ធ្វើឬកម្ញិកម្ញក់) ប្តី​៖ អឺម មែនតា ខានទៅលេងយូរហើយហ្នេអូន ប៉ុន្តែយើងទៅជាមួយណាគេ ? តែពីរនាក់ ? ប្រពន្ធ៖ តែពីរនាក់ម៉េចហ្នឹង​សប្បាយទៅ ? ប្តី៖ ម៉េចបានដឹងថាអត់សប្បាយ ? បងមានវិធីធ្វើឲ្យអូនឯងសប្បាយហា (គាត់ធ្វើមុខរបៀបខិលរកគ្មាន) ប្រពន្ធ៖ មែន ? ចង់តា! ហើយធ្វើម៉េចខ្លះ ? សប្បាយម៉េចទៅហ្ន ? ហាហាហា (គេនាំគ្នាសើចព្រមគ្នា) ស្រាប់តែទូរស័ព្ទរោទ៏ រីងៗៗៗ បុរសជាប្តីក៏លើកនិយាយ។ ជារឿងចៃដន្យរឺយ៉ាងណា ? មិត្តស្និទ្ធស្នាលម្នាក់របស់គាត់បបួលទៅលេងកំពង់សោម វិលល្ងាច! ព្រមមុនស្អែក! ហាហាហា វ៉ាវៗៗៗ រំភើប! (ប្រពន្ធ)។ ពួកគាត់នាំគ្នាក្រោកឡើង ប្រញាប់ប្រញាល់ទៅជួបមិត្តភក្តិម្នាក់នោះ ហើយដំណើរកំសាន្តក៏ចាប់ផ្តើម!!! អីយ៉ា!!! នៅតាមផ្លូវទៅកំពង់សោម ទេសភាពពិតជាមិនប្រែប្រួល មើលចុះ ពណ៍ឲ្យបៃតងស្រស់នៃរុក្ខជាតិសងខាងផ្លូវ ផ្ទះអ្នកស្រុកខ្លះធំខ្លះតូច មិនជាធួរធារ ក៏មានអ្នកធូរធារច្រើន ដើមឈើធំតួច ដុះខ្ពស់ទាប អូរប្រលាយបឹងបួរចាប់ផ្តើ...

Time is moving non stop... now my baby boy already turns to around 2.5 years old... Growing more lovely, more intelligent and bigger... lol... However, his facial expression is not that friendly to everyone... take after his Dad, such a serious expression.... hehehehe... *** On the end of January; for my cousin's wedding... *** During Chinese New Year; 18th February, red but pale... hahaha... *** 7th March, a moment while on the way to join a Birthday's party... *** Yesterday; 18th March, before leaving to join the wedding party... All in all, I always force him to take selfie wit me... hahaha....

On the large luxury bed of a king and a queen which in the middle of them, there is a presence of little kid; a cutie son, the prince of them… Look like this kid is kinda the wall to share this couple apart… but nahhh… you gonna feel warmth of a family… Love doesn’t mean to be always next to each other…. The cold wind is going through the big windows from one side to another… The smell of some types of flowers is going along with the wind… Their room is on the top of the castle… At night is the freshest time ever… A silent and peaceful night comforts this family a nice sleeping…and maybe leads them to the beautiful dream as well… Suddenly, the queen feels of something is touching her cheek lightly and that must be the hand of her king, she thinks… Though, she still closes her eyes and keeps innocent just to keep this moment going on… She feels of his care… she feels of his charming eyes looking at her and smile… she feels of love…a huge love from him… She keeps pretending and ...

It was a moment of several years passed… I was in a wedding party of my cousin… the party had been going on very well and full of joy… Evening arrived… a lot of guests were coming in their each understanding of excellent outfits… long silky dress, high class and expensive customs with some of simply but beautiful modern dress… They started eating… drinking beer and wine… became drunken guys… behavior also had been changed… polite into aggressive, speechless became talkative…shy into brave… and even the noisy guys into such so silent one… lol… Music kept playing… singers kept sharing their beautiful voice… attractive dancers showed their elegant body and dancing skills by the music rhythm on the stage… I saw a guy… went to talk with the music players… and signer… the stage VJ… then, he walked to the stage proudly… announced that he would like to wish the groom and bride a very marvelous life… wishing them… and gifting them by a few songs from him… aiii… I felt blush… he loo...

Just an ordinary lady actually, Always think of the warm from having family, Wanna get married coz wanna lets stress be, From working and earning money, That is SHE! Decide to be a bride, Smile to the life of being a wife, Dream of no crying life, Suppose to be a perfect housewife, However, everything might not happen by ordered. Replace by required to work harder, In order to earn much better, Responsibility is that high as a master, But get none popular, The praise doesn’t go to her. Don’t mean to get appreciate, Though; all in all, she needs encourage, Instead, she is just a target, That everyone have said, She is quite comfortable coz of her hubby’s aids. Never think of being the heroine, But then it exists without any hints, Maybe it is a fate that she is meant to be, The stronger, the core of her family, No choice but just accept and lets it be. So please bless her, the lord, Don’t make her waste her effort, Please t...

Go back to the past…. Whenever my mine remind of those fellow people, I feel quite uncomfortable… something seems so disgusting to me that could make me feel wanna vomit… lol… so strange… Seeing their faces, their relationship, I feel unwell in my body…  just feel immoral or something… hehehe…. Hearing their voice… their chuckling, I feel goose-bumps…  kinda very touching my ears… Be communicating with them sometime, their reaction, their attention to me… all have been assumed by my soul as insincere… such a fake one, the performance only… I even feel I’m in much jealousy… however, it is not… just I don’t need unreal friends… or they never think I’m their friends either… we may just cross a road and know each other… Be my real enemy; don’t pretend to be a friend who actually is enemy inside… It’s scary!

Lately, I got complaint coz of my working’s result… Frankly, I have been working hard on that but look like it is not a fruitful outcome while management won’t really care of how tired I have been doing so far but they only need result. That is why! Thus, I’m not feeling well with my surrounding people too… they seem so strange, up and down…good and bad… a bit discrimination or a bit mysterious to me while we should not be… coz we are just like a family… I feel worthless because of their ignorance and I don’t know why since I didn’t do anything to deserve this… Moreover, family issue is another headache case…  I & him keep fighting over the subject of our outcome… in short, financial crisis… we often argue each other… sometime there is nothing serious but we still have potential ability to light the fire of argument and we ignore each other… we do feel hurt and we know it but we still lets it happen none stop… We are now still in the middle family status but we could...