RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

Ahhhh…..awwww……help!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I shouted so much with quite much pain… I was on the hospital bed and was pushing into the Delivery Room and my husband was waiting outside with a lot of worries…. About an hour passed, my baby was born and all nurses were damn surprised with a lot admiration… “Your baby was so lovely and cute!!!” ------ 3 months later------- The baby is walking beside me… The male baby with brown color! He talks a lot and smiles a lot…. He’s charming and super cute! No one could bear not to look at him with loving eyes… BUT, I’m the one who is so nervous to walk along with him…. I dislike so much that he keeps talking so… he is so annoying to me… I even blame him, yell at him… “By the way, what kind of baby who could talk and walk with this age… Lol” We are in the luxury; big and high building… we are walking to see his dad in his office… I don’t walk beside him but is leading the way and he is walking behind me… Me: hayyyy… don’t t...

“Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.”-Ernest Hemimgway The presence of a faithful and loving partner, a great family life and a successful career may not be enough to prevent an intelligent soul to feel grief and melancholy. Here are six most likely reasons why happiness seems to elude highly intelligent people: 1.       They are the victim of over analysis Many people with high level of intelligence lean towards over-thinking and keep analyzing everything that occurs in their life, their surroundings and beyond. Too much thinking can be exhausting at times, especially when your thoughts lead you to conclusions which vex and frustrate you. They weigh you down, but you can’t help but think and think, no matter how draining the experience is. Their ability to analyze things is great. But, it is also true that we don’t need to pay attention to everything, and crowd our minds with unsavory thoughts. ‘Ignorance is bliss,’ th...

December is the month of excitement since I was kid, I love Christmas moment lol December is also the month of love, I got married on December and my beloved man was born on December too… However, December is also the month I got quite suffering these few years… It was December in 2012 or 2013, I was quite sick with server flu and cough… I cannot go to work many days, I cannot speak at all; I was alike a mermaid who sacrificed the voice to the witch…hehehe… - Offer the voice, the mermaid gets the legs and go to find her love… - Offer the voice, I got nothing but ehh... weight loss unexpectedly… not bad! =)) Then, on December 2014, I got pregnant around 3 months with my second baby boy… Oh well, things weren’t going on nicely with my health again. I got a bad bladder inflammation! Because I was pregnant, I tended not to take any medicine nor going to consult with doctor; I was scared if it would affect my baby… And because I was so, I made it become worse. I can b...

Tomorrow is her big day, my sister's wedding day.... So today, we invite the monks to bless the new couple in the evening which we always call "Thngai Sot Mun". Everything is going quite well except me, I'm lacking so many things lol but I calm those feelings and  still keep smiling. I'm with what I can afford... I'm with my normal white shirt and traditional long skirt with only ring but no other else jewelry... But I still feel proud coz at least I have that ring... Proud to be not so poor hehehehe However, things change when my hubby arrives.... He stares at how I dress.... He looks very nervous and yells at me..."Go!! Go to change your clothes..." People's who are near him, they look at him and then look at me.... They smile.... But I'm just so shameful... I feel so shy!!! I run to hide myself in my bedroom....and cry! I'm trying to be strong but he reveals my real inner... He seems try to make me know how low I lo...

I don’t know how I could be working the work I am working? Things I never think it can happen; it happened… Work I have no more passion about; I still need to pretend… I want to leave but I cannot leave… Once I choose my own happiness, they suffer, Or if I make them in better condition, I suffer! I have thoughtless why I am doing what I am doing? I know I am doing to be the sake of their happiness, I thought I would be happy to see them happy, But then, I am suffering as hell, Coz I cannot get out from self-complaining, Things are un-forbidden in hurting me… I really cannot figure out why I am here? All those bitchy people are around me, They are on stage, team up and look down at me, I’m the subject for their bullying… They offend my life, my story, my speech and my everything… They in the dark do so to me and act innocently in front of everybody! All in all, I know who they exactly are but in order to gain peace, I choose silent and pretend ...

I was assigned to join an event at Sunway Hotel and the topic was about Child Trafficking, Child/Woman Sexual abusing-harassment and law/legislation to protect them in Cambodia. Arrived there, participators were gifted and invited to go inside the conference. There were many high class, high position people to join and they were from the government sector, embassy, the NGOs and Telecommunication sector. They started to present their ideas, sharing, debating, questioning, discussion and prepared for the conclusion. I was there with two colleagues but they were male and the ones who I was not so closed with, I was there just not so different to be so-called alone… Until the lunch break, we all were invited to have Buffet lunch at a restaurant there. We three sat at a free table and went to select the food. When I was back, I was a bit surprised to see my table was filled fully with the officers who looked that high as well. I was trying to act professionally but ehhehe…...

This is nothing but us in those often moments....lol

I graduated high school since 2007 and counting until now is about 10 years. However, I always miss my high school’s student life. I always wanna flash back the time-being and enjoy that moment even it may be last only 1 day. Until recently, I got informed that I would be in a Formal Test of general knowledge and English for challenging to be the officer of government. Yet, don’t confused if I was automatically selected for the test but my honey was the one who applied for me and I was that innocent to know about this… lol… He bought the form for me and lets me fill my personal information while the rest, he took responsibilities to fill more and so did the process to apply… Two days more before the test day arrived, my honey gave me more than 10 softcopy documents to review and told me to try to memorize for the exam but you know what? They totally were about over 200 pages and I was just too busy with my work and so did at my home too (my both sons were all sick). I tried so h...

I’m walking along the natural street in SihanoukVille while is hugging his hand and we meet two beautiful ladies there. They are the actresses and my man is a popular actor, the very handsome guy^^ while he is wearing this white shirt, he looks damn sexy! :* This incident meeting is such a greeting time to them; especially, those ladies. They come to greet my man very closely. They remind my man about their performing scene of kissing and even persuade my man to do it there by the reason of beautiful scenery to fit with kissing… Fuck you bitches!!!  Oh well… my man seems stupid or what?? Coz he agrees to kiss with the first lady who persuades him; however, he rejects the second lady by excusing as it doesn’t seem appropriate…. “Pervert!!! Why can’t you think so since the first????”         I don’t feel good at all and stare at him angrily… he smiles too charming to me and introduce me to those ladies… “By the way, she is my woman! Sh...

No matter how beautiful the fresh flower is; it is going to wither and soon to fade away… No matter how paradise look like for the spring is; it is going to be replaced by another season once time arrives…. Just like me; I felt so lonely coz people around me are discriminating me indirectly or even directly. There are some generous people who come to my life and brighten my daily smile… However, it is very sad coz when their time arrives; they’ve gone one by one… Oh well, they didn’t die, I meant they left me… I felt so miserable; I went to a pagoda and met the monk I always trust the most. I shared him my story and he explained me a lot but he ended up by a remarkable phrase... “PLEASE stop putting yourself in sorrow; please stop being happy coz they treat you well or being sad coz they are doing something unsatisfied to you since all of all; your happiness is belong to you, yourself! Please stop being glad or sad coz of other! Please learn to create your own...