RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

This last two weeks of the month- December is the remarkable time! First, my second son who has been sent to treat in hospital after 1 week, I requested the doctor to leave. Of course, the doctor idea is preferable for me to continue to stay a few days more but I saw my son was already better even he wasn't 100% recover but he seemed okay. Thus, I did missing my room, my home. Staying at hospital, I really went through a lot of boring and unpleasant time. Then, my request became successful. Backing home, I was extremely happy as dancing along with the beautiful music. Yeah, excited! However, 8.00 pm arrived that my second son illness re-started and it's badly than the previous one. Until 2.30 am in the morning, I cannot wait more and went back to hospital. Though, I still needed to wait until working hours of 7.00 am. My son body's became so soft and he seemed unconscious that even I tried to shake him, he still had no reaction. My tears started falling down none stop a...

Kontheak Bopha Hospital is where offers the free charge of fee to cure under 15 years old children. Well, I have been here twice already with my second son of just now is 6 months old. First time, we spent only 2 nights and left. However, now is 4 nights that flew and it's no exact confirm of how long we would be required to stay...due to unstable health condition of my baby. Every seconds staying here is flying very slow to me... Uhmmm, I feel hard to breathe and live here...just coz I feel disgusted to almost of things...including eating here, using this public bathroom and toilet, sleeping here, breathing here...virus! I feel there are virus everywhere; though, here is much clean and hygiene if compare to other public hospitals... You know, coz I then still need to be here, all I can do, is to ignore the negativity in my thought and keep living the way other live. They can, I can!!! Staying here, I met a lot of women whom is called mothers to their child... They are: - A g...

I gonna proof of why is No Money, No Life.... Have you ever heard the quote "No Money; No Honey"? Uhmm, Lets start from this quote... You know.... No money, no honey; No honey, no marry; No marry, no baby; No baby, life's empty; Life's empty, unreasonable worry; Unreasonable worry, become frenzy; Become frenzy, commit suicide; Commit suicide, DIE. Then, make sure you have money or you will be ended DIE. Agree??? ..... ..... ..... ..... ^^ I'm just joking around; somehow, find out the answer by yourself! =))

Ti Bom Pot by Heng Pitou This is the newest song that is very popular by most of Cambodian people; especially the teenagers and early adults. Well, it is popular coz it is the original song that was written by this singer directly without any copy from anyone. To me, I just was so awkward during watching this video; plus its lyric as well. I'm shocked...lol... Just because the main actress seems copy all my saying words that always exist when I'm in war with my man. Thus, even the way the performed.... Oh God!!! It's quite the same! Questions: 1. Did they investigate secretly about my family? So that they could copy almost of my words ... 2. Then, my family argument is that popular to make them interested? 3. This video make sense, doesn't it? Last question... . . . . . 4. Would I and my man also end up as this video???? ------is loading the answers------

Ohohohoh….. Christmas is coming… Most of people are chilly and wishing, For happiness or be blessing, For the New Year 2016 that is upcoming. Oh, Santa! Are you real or just like a dream? Would you bring us the wishes we are whispering? Or would you send the gifts per what we think? Yeaaaa…. I’m always wondering, If this would be happening. Grandpa Santa please, If you don’t gain me the wishes, Or give me the gifts, Maybe, I won’t have bliss, For this history day of the birth of Christ. Ahhh…Santa; don’t tell me, you think of my hubby; Expect him to give me the memory, Of getting gift or special time for his lady, It is not that easily, Hahahaa…. He may afraid it gonna drive me silly… XD By the way, lets me sing my Christmas song of each every year… “We wish you a Merry Christmas We wish you a Merry Christmas We wish you a Merry Christmas And a Happy New Year!!! Jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way! Oh what...

Woman, hearing “woman” word…what do you think of the definition? Woman, has a lot of definitions to me since it isn’t that easily to set the default one… lol Even my own self, sometime I’m just doubtful if what I do want the most… hehehe… When I and my man are around each other... We are often fighting… teasing each other in term of mental violent... He even rarely shows his love toward me… I’m a bit lonely and he seems doesn’t tend to know… I feel I always meet metal offense…lol I wish we would separate sometime to gain peace… All I want is Love or at least Peace! When we are in reality of being away from each other…. First day, I feel…”wow! It’s so peaceful!” ^^ Several next days, uhhhh…. But I don’t really like somewhere is that silent so…. ?_? Especially; no him, everything I need to do only by myself, Take care the both kids, washing milk bottle, clothes, bathing them, feed them,  give them medicine…etc, nahhh…. I’m so exhausted! I already spend ...

I live here in this human world for almost 26 years now…. Base on my experience in this world, I do doubt of why I’m always required to select the choices for my life? I never can get the full set one… Oh Lord, I want to complain! Why do you treat me so??? hmmm…lol I was asked to select only a choice among: *PARENTS 1. Fussy, sometime also seem annoying (^,<), nahhh…actually love never ever lose for their children… 2. Nicely, generously, rich but no any time for their children…No time to be fussy nor argue.... >>>Hehehe… I don’t like silent world without love, I always want 1 st choice! *SIBLINGS 1. Respect each sibling; know what is right & what is wrong… mature but seems a bit far distant to each one! 2. Fighting with each other both words or even sometime hands and legs XD; always want to be the right side….childish! Need time to be growing together… >>>Repeatedly, I love noisy world… if I select one, nothing is excited! lol *...

Recently is just mad with this song; "Louch Sne Doung Chan", the new cover one. However, I love only the half first while the half last, the rap part...just feel it's a bit harsh... lol *** The beginning of this song brings me some unique feeling from the old time...the old me... Let's enjoy!

I'm fine, you know?  It's nothing big... I only cry while listen to the sad songs, And just cry by listening and watching the sweet scene, I'm just sobbing listening to the confessing love's words, Back then, I'm fine... I'll try to be this fine as long as possible... Even actually my heart seems already broke into pieces, My tears are just falling down while writing here, Yeahh... I'm not seriously until dead, I'm still living, I'm still breathing, Even though, I'm feeling like I'm dying while living, Don't confuse if I'm silly, I'm not at all,  I'm just fine in the wrong way, I'm just living day by day, In the environment I never dream of, Uhmmm, I can't feel of love lately, I'm alike breathless whenever thinking of this, Go and back, nothing I think I can do, Many related stories tie me, Just the way I cannot leave this world easily, Even if I sometime decide to be, I have no choice, But...

I would like to pray for all the loss of the lives over the world.. Please accept my deepest sympathy.... Before I could say "Pray for our world", my pray was dedicated to the French people only...and something has changed me.... Last several days, there was a terrorist attacks in Paris, France. There were shooting, bombing which caused more than one hundred people died; plus, more than four hundred people were sending to the hospital from their injuries during that time. The French President announced the state of emergency. The media around the world reported this news. People all over the world knew it and we did feeling sad and regret for the loss; including me and many people in my country. I saw an application in Facebook for changing our profile picture into French Flat to show our condolences... I did it! However, a big part of reaction to our sympathy of the loss of French was seen in many different ways... First, I thought they were too much for even jealous...

The same question that I try to raise up for exploring the answer from him.... "Why do you always tend not to take selfie with me? Or any photos together? " is my question to him... His first time answer, "Are you too free to just even mind about this type of stuff?" Second time answer, "the same answer, plus, I'm so sleepy, can u just stop this stupid question?" Third time.... Me: I still wonder why? Why can't be me but our kids do okay?" Him: I can't imagine you can even jealous with our children...blah blah blah" He keeps ignoring to answer me while I keep exploring for the answer.... Today, forth time.... Me: Tell me why? Help me to erase my doubt please! Him: what's wrong in your body? Me: Answer me and I will never ask you again... Him: Nothing, just I dislike selfie or photo capturing.... Me: Then why could you take photos with our kids? Selfie with your friends and even selfie with that group of ladies? Him:...

Uhmmm….hehehehe…. I last few days was moving my working desk and of course, I found an A4 document in Khmer Language which I tended to throw it into to rubbish bin but I noticed it was my hand writing letters. So, I kept a spot there and was reading if what it was exactly… Ah ha, hehehe… I felt blushing during reading… the answers of mine to those questions in that A4 document was just too clear as the reflection to the mirror…show to the point of what is my most desire of life….lol… “Money!!!!” I was too straight to share about these kinda ideas… I was damn brave to say it out… Thus, I was quite high self-esteem, very confident and really had high spirit of encouragement, motivation, loves and hope!!! I almost couldn’t believe that was me… if comparing to my pity me currently… I feel I already lost those types of personality…lol See the following detail:

Sometime, people is too complicated, Being once good and that bad to another person, And it all which I’m quite hesitated, If what should I react? Someone who’s actually seen closed to me, But when something I would love to get, it comes to me, That someone is trying to disturb, Yeahhh, really put all the effort to stop my desire. Though, when my desire still fates to be with me, That someone changed and back to facilitate my way, That someone seems helping me, Make me feel…”oh, I was wrong to see you that evil..” Facilitate my way but don’t make it clear for me, There are multi questions I wanna hear the answer, That someone seems hesitate to make it transparent, Then, just keep going around and around. Time is moving none stop to the deadline, Why do you still tend not to answer me? First you said you are busy, Next, you said you are feeling uneasy. All in all, I still cannot clear my doubt yet, Coz of your up and down mood, Yo...

You were not a stranger to my family but me, One day you came to my life, You were showing love toward this kiddy, You showed you wanna be with me for eternity, Uhmmm, I also had good feeling for you, Just I cannot accept immediately, Wanna show you first who is exactly me, I told you I love eating fast food, I told you I'm stubborn, I told you I'm not a completed girly coz I don't know how to cook, I told you I'm not that type of someone's under controlled, I told you about my past, I told you everything of all my bad habits, bad points... And you were saying those all were fine to you, It won't matter at all, I fell in love easily then coz I trusted your words, Our relationship started, Of course, you could deal very smoothly with those lacking parts of me, We finally became family! Though, from day to day, you were changing... You won't anymore satisfied to eat fast food with me, You told me you dislike it, Then you started complaini...

I’m just working normally with my ordinary life… Suddenly, the powerful management of the company comes to me… He opens the new company and wants me to go there… he is trying to persuade me… tight me with many things of both huge salary packet and best working condition… Unluckily, it is not the job that I want… First, I do afraid of him and agree… However, just start with that new job for two days, my emotion reveals… and I do dislike that job… the power of my dislike is much more larger than the scary of mine to his power…  Of course, I ask him to come back and continue my previous job… Hope he would not mind me… Is it possible? Well, well…it may so hard to understand, right? Let’s me compare into the example… The powerful management = the dad Me= the daughter of that dad New job= the rich man Once you are enjoyable with your current life…. Then your dad suggests you to marry a rich man… though you don’t love him at all… whatever, because he is your dad…so his co...

What is your special part or feeling during your maternity leave? Well, I don't wanna talk about how hard I have been going through during this time yet but let's me share you of the best side I appreciate... I'm just feeling like I don't wanna go back to work after 3 months maternity leave since the feeling of being a real mom is quite awesome! Of course, I already have a son of around 3 years old but since he was born, I don't really have much time to be with him nor well take caring him..I'm stuck in working and earning money... Until my second son was born, I won't lets my mom to help me that much as my first son but I'm the one who always be next to him... It's damn tired once I need to take care them both alone so...somedays, my body is extremely exhausted and in pain but my feeling is doing quite good...coz I think this is what mom should do for their kids... I love all those hundreds times of being called to answer YES from my first son.....

In Khmer’s belief, dreaming about dog is referring to your connection to the spirit or soul because it is believed that dog is the representative of ghost. So, if you see the dog in your dream, make sure you protect yourself well from being attacked or you will have bad luck… something like getting sick or meet any failure… I remember I never dreamt of the dog until before I got married for a while, I started seeing in my dream in many different types. However, that spirit which hides in the dog’s physic was coming to be my guard, my protector… Really appreciate…hehehe The first time I saw the dog in my dream was a black dog that could speak human language and asking me to lets him stay with me while I agreed… But that common black dog was not only able to speak, he could transform into human body too… a thin tall young and white guy…lol… cute! He was kinda the same age as me… That time, he was that rough to me but actually was trying to avoid me from a disaster of falling int...

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Now it is raining… What if I were… In the neat and beautiful room… everything is well prepared very simply but damn comfortable… the in front part of the room has a very big transparent glass door… In side nearing there, is a soft sofa… The view outside the room is the fresh green one of many types of trees which stand still on the mountain… Yeah… this house, this room is next to mountain… Raining starts dropping down so much… The nature is dancing per raining rhythm…  and it seems the way to clean our nature to be greener and fresher…  There is a lady who is standing next to that glass door while it is opened a half… she hugs herself with her both hands… looking far outside and smiling… enjoy the nature during the rain… when it is colder and colder… Without acknowledgment, a soft warm cloth is wrapped on her shoulder… “Take care honey, it is so cold…”, a tall man is talking… She turns back and smiles… He then cuddles her from the back, lets his...

A boy was dating a girl who always hurt him. One day, she broke up with him and told him, "I don't ever want to see you again." A few months later, the girl had a change of heart. She realized that she loved the boy, so she went back and said to him, "Give me just one more chance. I love you and I need you. I promise that I will never hurt you again." But the boy just laughed and said to her, "Only a fool would take back someone who hurt them so much." The girl felt hopeless and began to cry, but the boy put his arms around her, held her tightly and said, "...and I am one of those fools." Love is blind... Love is a fool... But then, Love is that happiness! :'>

Twerk It Like Miley By Brandon Beal feat. Christopher LYRIC Hey, girl, this yo song, let's see that padonkadondon I'mma try to do the things that you don't Baby, it's yo party, I just wanna play What's that sound? What's that thang that's got me like wow? I'm tryna beat beat it up twelve rounds Girl, look at that body, I just gotta say (Pre-Chorus) When you back back back back back it up And you drop it down low And you pick pick pick pick pick it up Girl, I'm ready to blow I'mma stack stack stack stack stack it up And I'm spending it all When I throw throw throw throw it up (Chorus x6) Start twerkin' like Miley (Verse) You got everybody in this club lookin' at you girl How you move that thing from side to side Fuck everybody in this club, cause I got you girl I'mma tell you what's goin' down tonight Girl, it's gon' rain, that's that sound That...