Sunday of 19th August 2012, the day of my husband’s leaving for 6 months training in India had arrived… it seems too fast! I had tried much to control my feeling for not to be easily known but it’s still impossible. A night before his departure day, we were together and helped each other to pack the clothes and some dry-food. We were joking and teasing each other with some bad words and many sweet words…lol… I love that time really much… and of course, that was the night that both of us cannot sleep well... we both kept sleeping near each other in a silent way, being in his arms…listened to his beating heart..!! :S I felt warm and accidently fell asleep…would be around 2 hours next, I was awaked coz of getting a kiss on my mouth…and yea, from my beloved guy…he smiled to me very gently! Didn’t he sleep yet within these two hours? Then, a kiss was returned as he deserved to get…
That night had passed, early morning came to replace… we started prepared ourselves since 6:00 AM and we reached Phnom Penh Airport at around 8:00 PM with our parents and some relatives. The airport is so, always noisy with many people and this is my favorite environment but that day, I was just very hard to smile… Our uncle took a photo of us while he said we seemed the same, the sign of sad was shown on our faces. The one, whom always addicted to photos-capturing as me, became the one whom afraid of taking photos coz I wasn’t in a good mood at all… To my honey, he would start departure at 10:00 AM while he and his team needed to get checking on some documents and the luggage inside the airport since 8:30 AM and would back to outside again to say good bye to the relatives. After, I just took a short time to the restroom…when I came back, I was too surprised… I was almost late to see my honey face to face for last time within next future 6 months… he walked to me, showed his sad eyes and told me he needed to go now to wait inside since it was already 9:30 AM… he hugged me, kissed my forehead and next was holding my hand to walk with him and kissed my hand for last time before went into inside…. He did look back to me many times…for sure, I had non-speech to give him… I was in a dream I felt while it was the fact 100%... I immediately remembered I could see him again via the mirror wall next to the lift to go upstair… Nothing beside kept running to that place and waiting to see him for last time… my tears started moving through my cheek… I saw him…going to the upstair and waving to me with his almost crying face… I wanna tell him to take care well…but my all words were stucked…and even if I could speak out, he still cannot hear coz there was a mirror wall between us… sad me…! I felt so regret for not saying anything to him…!!!
That was a day, a full day of my sobbing and seeing the world very negatively whenever I was alone… I saw an SMS from him via facebook since 11:30 AM which told me he reached Thailand and would start the flight to India at 2:45 PM…I saw this SMS at 4:00 PM…it was too late…just gave him a replied-SMS. Until the night arrived, I still cannot sleep well… many times that I awaked… coz I wanted to know if it was the time my husband would reach India or not yet… he would land to India and continued with car travelling until 11:00 PM in India (equal to 12:30 AM in Cambodia) to reach his stayed-place in Pune (formerly Poona) where is near Mumbai (previously known as Bombay). I sent him another message via facebook since 11:00 PM in Cambodia and kept checking 2 hours once but he didn’t respond me… at around 4:00 AM, I got his response…maybe he just saw my message… however, it really made me much releasing and I could sleep from that time… A new morning started…Monday of 20 August 2012… the day of starting work of the week… Start a life without him… start a life of time-waiting…!!!
Hmmm…. “No any meetings have no leaving time… “, it’s actually believed by many people and yeah, it’s quite correct!!! Plus, true love always causes a miracle… So, the time would be flying and passing quickly… I would see him soon!!!
