Why I need to be an angel that all time???

Different mistakes, the same negative attitude, the same unreasonable reaction, the same disappointment and all types of arguments keep occurring rapidly… Just feel like I couldn’t bear any longer… should I stop at this point? No doubt if after I’m getting into old age and I may have heart-attack, that kinda illness… just bcoz most of my family time is in trouble much more than being okay… If anyone accidently ask us of how many days per months that we have good understanding and respecting? We will never answer it correctly…we can’t remember it…something like this happen very less…but if we are asked about how many day we aren’t talk to each other bcoz of arguments… we would be quite confident to answer this…it gonna b a well response of our quick consideration…or at least we would feedback you very closed one to the exact answer… 25 days per month is the average data… Tell me pls, why do we need to spend our life together in this breathless environment? I’m so sure by the way, I gonna b that huge hurt once we both finally decide to share our life’s path… stop being together… though, what gonna help us out then? Maybe only this way could make us bcom better after spending enough time… we will start from the hardest, the most hurtful heart…but later on it will release step by step… or if we continue in this way, our current family life… the family life of arrogant behavior in our each one, fight for being right… from day to day, we may just get more n more hurt… non stop… Our family life fulls of muli-subjects to b debated… Try to prove we are right with those thousands supporting reasons… keep catching and analyzing each mistakes… However, I still never raise up any f*cking unreasonable evident…but he did…I sometime almost can’t believe what I heard… when he acts that unacceptable behavior to me, his first reason is bcoz his health is not good… and most of evening, he feels that super tired from his whole day… How about me? I also work and even for private sector...not a public job as him...he still has time to take a nap in most of afternoon time...he has time to do exercise, to play with our kid...while I can do nothing as him... I almost cannot breathe well during working....hmmm....Thus, his second reason some other time…he said it is his nature behavior… most of people who know him, they can accept him… why I couldn't?, he asked. He’s even teasing me such pouring oil on the fire… he pushed me to go to ask his parents, his relatives or his close friends…they all know…huh? Do I need to do so? At the same time, why then he keep complaining about me either for just I cannot act calm or sweet to him all the time? I’m human as well guy!!! I have heart… I exactly can b suffered, don’t you know???!!!!! Why do you want me to be always that sweetie angel while you are most of time acting that evil guy? Oh my….!!!!