Tuesday, January 20, 2015

"The Little Match-Seller" by Hans Christian Andersen

It was terribly cold and nearly dark on the last evening of the old year, and the snow was falling fast. In the cold and the darkness, a poor little girl, with bare head and naked feet, roamed through the streets. It is true she had on a pair of slippers when she left home, but they were not of much use. They were very large, so large; indeed, that they had belonged to her mother and the poor little creature had lost them in running across the street to avoid two carriages that were rolling along at a terrible rate. One of the slippers she could not find, and a boy seized upon the other and ran away with it, saying that he could use it as a cradle, when he had children of his own. So the little girl went on with her little naked feet, which were quite red and blue with the cold.

     In an old apron she carried a number of matches, and had a bundle of them in her hands. No one had bought anything of her the whole day, nor had any one given here even a penny. Shivering with cold and hunger, she crept along; poor little child, she looked the picture of misery. The snowflakes fell on her long, fair hair, which hung in curls on her shoulders, but she regarded them not.

     Lights were shining from every window, and there was a savory smell of roast goose, for it was New-year's eve - yes, she remembered that. In a corner, between two houses, one of which projected beyond the other, she sank down and huddled herself together. She had drawn her little feet under her, but she could not keep off the cold; and she dared not go home, for she had sold no matches, and could not take home even a penny of money. Her father would certainly beat her; besides, it was almost as cold at home as here, for they had only the roof to cover them, through which the wind howled, although the largest holes had been stopped up with straw and rags.

     Her little hands were almost frozen with the cold. Ah! Perhaps a burning match might be some good, if she could draw it from the bundle and strike it against the wall, just to warm her fingers.

     She drew one out - "scratch!" how it sputtered as it burnt! It gave a warm, bright light, like a little candle, as she held her hand over it. It was really a wonderful light. It seemed to the little girl that she was sitting by a large iron stove, with polished brass feet and a brass ornament. How the fire burned! and seemed so beautifully warm that the child stretched out her feet as if to warm them, when, lo! the flame of the match went out, the stove vanished, and she had only the remains of the half-burnt match in her hand.

     She rubbed another match on the wall. It burst into a flame, and where its light fell upon the wall it became as transparent as a veil, and she could see into the room. The table was covered with a snowy white table-cloth, on which stood a splendid dinner service, and a steaming roast goose, stuffed with apples and dried plums. And what was still more wonderful, the goose jumped down from the dish and waddled across the floor, with a knife and fork in its breast, to the little girl. Then the match went out, and there remained nothing but the thick, damp, cold wall before her.

     She lighted another match, and then she found herself sitting under a beautiful Christmas-tree. It was larger and more beautifully decorated than the one which she had seen through the glass door at the rich merchant's. Thousands of tapers were burning upon the green branches, and colored pictures, like those she had seen in the show-windows, looked down upon it all. The little one stretched out her hand towards them, and the match went out.

     The Christmas lights rose higher and higher, till they looked to her like the stars in the sky. Then she saw a star fall, leaving behind it a bright streak of fire. "Someone is dying," thought the little girl, for her old grandmother, the only one who had ever loved her, and who was now dead, had told her that when a star falls, a soul was going up to God.
     She again rubbed a match on the wall, and the light shone round her; in the brightness stood her old grandmother, clear and shining, yet mild and loving in her appearance.
     "Grandmother," cried the little one, "O take me with you; I know you will go away when the match burns out; you will vanish like the warm stove, the roast goose, and the large, glorious Christmas-tree."

     And she made haste to light the whole bundle of matches, for she wished to keep her grandmother there. And the matches glowed with a light that was brighter than the noon-day, and her grandmother had never appeared so large or so beautiful. She took the little girl in her arms, and they both flew upwards in brightness and joy far above the earth, where there was neither cold nor hunger nor pain, for they were with God.
     In the dawn of morning there lay the poor little one, with pale cheeks and smiling mouth, leaning against the wall; she had been frozen to death on the last evening of the year; and the New-year's sun rose and shone upon a little corpse! The child still sat, in the stiffness of death, holding the matches in her hand, one bundle of which was burnt.

     "She tried to warm herself," said some.

      No one imagined what beautiful things she had seen, nor into what glory she had entered with her grandmother, on New-year's day.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Your Birth Month & You

What Your Birth Month Says About You

JANUARY

Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous 

FEBRUARY

Abstract thoughts 
Loves reality and abstract 
Intelligent and clever 
Changing personality 
Temperamental 
Quiet, shy and humble 
Honest and loyal 
Determined to reach goals 
Loves freedom 
Rebellious when restricted 
Loves aggressiveness 
Too sensitive and easily hurt 
Showing anger easily 
Dislike unnecessary things 
Loves making friends but rarely shows it 
Daring and stubborn 
Ambitious 
Realizing dreams and hopes 
Sharp 
Loves entertainment and leisure 
Romantic on the inside not outside 
Superstitious and ludicrous 
Spendthrift 
Learns to show emotions

MARCH 


Attractive personality 
Affectionate 
Shy and reserved 
Secretive 
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic 
Loves peace and serenity 
Sensitive to others 
Loves to serve others 
Not easily angered 
Trustworthy 
Appreciative and returns kindness 
Observant and assess others 
Revengeful 
Loves to dream and fantasize 
Loves travelling 
Loves attention 
Hasty decisions in choosing partners 
Loves home decors 
Musically talented 
Loves special things 
Moody 

APRIL 


Active and dynamic 
Decisive and hasteful but tends to regret 
Attractive and affectionate to oneself 
Strong mentality 
Loves attention 
Diplomatic 
Consoling 
Friendly and solves people's problems 
Brave and fearless 
Adventurous 
Loving and caring 
Suave and generous 
Emotional 
Revengeful 
Aggressive 
Hasty 
Good memory 
Moving 
Motivate oneself and the others 
Sickness usually of the head and chest 
Easily get too jealous

MAY


Stubborn and hard-hearted 
Strong-willed and highly motivated 
Sharp thoughts 
Easily angered 
Attracts others and loves attention 
Deep feelings 
Beautiful physically and mentally 
Firm standpoint 
Easily influenced 
Needs no motivation 
Easily consoled 
Systematic (left brain) 
Loves to dream 
Strong clairvoyance 
Understanding 
Sickness usually in the ear and neck 
Good imagination 
Good debating skills 
Good physical 
Weak breathing 
Loves literature and the arts 
Loves travelling 
Dislike being at home 
Restless 
Hardworking 
High spirited 
Spendthrift 

JUNE


Thinks far with vision 
Easily influenced by kindness 
Polite and soft-spoken 
Having lots of ideas 
Sensitive 
Active mind 
Hesitating 
Tends to delay 
Choosy and always wants the best 
Temperamental 
Funny and humorous 
Loves to joke 
Good debating skills 
Talkative 
Daydreamer 
Friendly 
Knows how to make friends 
Abiding 
Able to show character 
Easily hurt 
Prone to getting colds 
Loves to dress up 
Easily bored 
Fussy 
Seldom show emotions 
Takes time to recover when hurt 
Brand conscious 
Executive 
Stubborn 
Those who loves me are enemies 
Those who hates me are friends 

JULY 


Fun to be with 
Secretive 
Difficult to fathom and to be understood 
Quiet unless excited or tensed 
Takes pride in oneself 
Has reputation 
Easily consoled 
Honest 
Concern about people's feelings 
Tactful 
Friendly 
Approachable 
Very emotional 
Temperamental and unpredictable 
Moody and easily hurt 
Witty and sarky 
Sentimental 
Not revengeful 
Forgiving but never forgets 
Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things 
Guides others physically and mentally 
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully 
Caring and loving 
Treats others equally 
Strong sense of sympathy 
Wary and sharp 
Judge people through observations 
Hardworking 
No difficulties in studying 
Loves to be alone 
Always broods about the past and the old friends 
Likes to be quiet 
Homely person 
Waits for friends 
Never looks for friends 
Not aggressive unless provoked 
Prone to having stomach and dieting problems 
Loves to be loved 
Easily hurt but takes long to recover 
Overly concerned 
Puts in effort in work

AUGUST 


Loves to joke 
Attractive 
Suave and caring 
Brave and fearless 
Firm and has leadership qualities 
Knows how to console others 
Too generous and egoistic 
Take high pride of oneself 
Thirsty for praises 
Extraordinary spirit 
Easily angered 
Angry when provoked 
Easily jealous 
Observant 
Careful and cautious 
Thinks quickly 
Independent thoughts 
Loves to lead and to be led 
Loves to dream 
Talented in the arts, music and defence 
Sensitive but not petty 
Poor resistance against illnesses 
Learns to relax 
Hasty and rushy 
Romantic 
Loving and caring 
Loves to make friends

SEPTEMBER


Suave and compromising 
Careful, cautious and organized 
Likes to point out people's mistakes 
Likes to criticize 
Quiet but able to talk well 
Calm and cool 
Kind and sympathetic 
Concerned and detailed 
Trustworthy, loyal and honest 
Does work well 
Sensitive 
Thinking 
Good memory 
Clever and knowledgeable 
Loves to look for information 
Must control oneself when criticizing 
Able to motivate oneself 
Understanding 
Secretive 
Loves sports, leisure and travelling 
Hardly shows emotions 
Tends to bottle up feelings 
Choosy especially in relationships 
Loves wide things 
Systematic 

OCTOBER 


Loves to chat 
Loves those who loves him 
Loves to takes things at the centre 
Attractive and suave 
Inner and physical beauty 
Does not lie or pretend 
Sympathetic 
Treats friends importantly 
Always making friends 
Easily hurt but recovers easily 
Bad tempered 
Selfish 
Seldom helps unless asked 
Daydreamer 
Very opinionated 
Does not care of what others think 
Emotional 
Decisive 
Strong clairvoyance 
Loves to travel, the arts and literature 
Soft-spoken, loving and caring 
Romantic 
Touchy and easily jealous 
Concerned 
Loves outdoors 
Just and fair 
Spendthrift and easily influenced 
Easily loses confidence 

NOVEMBER 


Has a lot of ideas 
Difficult to fathom 
Thinks forward 
Unique and brilliant 
Extraordinary ideas 
Sharp thinking 
Fine and strong clairvoyance 
Can become good doctors 
Careful and cautious 
Dynamic in personality 
Secretive 
Inquisitive 
Knows how to dig secrets 
Always thinking 
Less talkative but amiable 
Brave and generous 
Patient 
Stubborn and hard-hearted 
If there is a will, there is a way 
Determined 
Never give up 
Hardly become angry unless provoked 
Loves to be alone 
Thinks differently from others 
Sharp-minded 
Motivates oneself 
Does not appreciates praises 
High-spirited 
Well-built and tough 
Deep love and emotions 
Romantic 
Uncertain in relationships 
Homely 
Hardworking 
High abilities 
Trustworthy 
Honest and keeps secrets 
Not able to control emotions 
Unpredictable 

DECEMBER 


Loyal and generous 
Patriotic 
Active in games and interactions 
Impatient and hasty 
Ambitious 
Influential in organisations 
Fun to be with 
Loves to socialize 
Loves praises 
Loves attention 
Loves to be loved 
Honest and trustworthy 
Not pretending 
Short tempered 
Changing personality 
Not egoistic 
Takes high pride in oneself 
Hates restrictions 
Loves to joke 
Good sense of humor 
Logical

Monday, January 12, 2015

The Princess & the Secret Castle

I believe she would be the princess, this picture... and I damn love her... Does this kinda beauty exist in this real world? lol.... She has nothing unattractive, even her personality which is shown in this picture... look calm and peace... quite innocent and especially, look like she loves nature and its creatures... Living in the big castle, that is so wonderful... I wonder if she is living with de handsome prince or just with her servants?
I do love her!!!

Seeing this picture, I remembered I once was living in the castle too.........

That’s almost 3 years ago, I was so rush backing home since it looked like my family got any issues I needed to solve... Riding on the road rashly but then when I arrived in front of a big gate of a very big empty land… I was interrupted by a group of Ninja and so did many other people on the road… Those ninja were checking all people if they were wearing jewelry, they would be killed… I was so frighten since I wore almost 2K diamond ring and I tried to hide but finally was seen by a ninja and I was ended up falling down by his Samurai sword… I felt I was on the state of almost out of breath and other people were well in peace… But then, the loudly welcoming music was flying to my ear… with a powerful speech of a lady whom other called, QUEEN! I felt she walked to me and said generously, how pity was that lady… and she shouted to those Ninja… who gave you all the command to do this?! Those ninja was looking down and none reply… Simultaneously, I was unconscious…

I didn't know what had happened but I was awake in a mini beautiful room and I just recognized I was taken into that big gate… the empty land I saw before my unconscious turned to be a castle, the large one with all surrounding of fresh beautiful garden… That was a miracle land… I suddenly remembered of my family and tried to get up to find the way out… It was impossible… I looked like not yet well heal from my wound… Then, a bit fatty elder servant walked in, she looked a cold woman and her words were so sharp…”Get up girl, follow me, I introduced you your job here….” I just did as her command…


Walking behind her to outside that room, there were a lot of soldiers… both genders of servants, they were doing their jobs by taking care the garden, watering the grass, flowers… some were washing up… washing clothes… well, they were working carefully and I felt this castle was just alike a palace… Where was that? Who were they? I asked myself… That elder servant told me I was saved by the queen and taken here to cure my wound… I so after had to live in this place and work to compensate my living… Wasn't that mean I already became a servant too? How about my family who were waiting for me? How would they worry of me? Oh God! :’(

I just noticed my clothes had been changed into a beautiful white dress… my long hair was decorated nicely and I was quite different from who was really me… Just felt I looked like a princess than just a servant… However, I was ordered to work with many female servants who dressed completely in a servant uniform and we all were working on the garden with those colorful flowers… Be honest, I was falling in love with that kinda lively nature… I kept my personal issues at any edge I didn't really realize for a while… 
I was picking flowers into my basket and immediately another anonymous hand picked up several flowers for me… and that was such an extremely handsome guy… He smiled at me and said… "These're for a beautiful girl as you…" I felt blush…”girly behavior…” Well, he was so charming… he kept trying to communicate with me and finally we both became friends while I also knew that he was a prince among other more here…. Not so long after we knew each other; there was one more presence of another prince occurred… He was totally opposite to the prince I knew, very aggressive and rude… He tried to seduce me badly… while I also knew my friend prince also felt the same as him to me but he was so gentle. However, I just cannot give him any hope and there neither any way for that aggressive prince… I already had a family… husband and a son… just no one here knew it but I myself… 
That second prince was too stubborn… he knew I and my friend prince; whom I still didn't know his name, were so closed that it made him so jealous… I saw he was standing on the second floor of the castle and stared to us… then an arrow was flying direct to me… luckily I was saved by my friend prince… We were all aware it was from that stubborn prince… Oh lord! He had intention to kill me for not loving him?!
This happening wasn't able to be covered… and finally, it was told to the Queen… we all were called to meet in the big room with the queen… and the case had been solved… the arrogant prince was punished… However, I was forbidden to meet or had any communicating with my friend prince more, for the sake of being peace… Sad us even though we were just friends…

Sitting in my room near the window and looking far to outside… be honest, I felt I missed my family much more since before I could forget some coz of my friend…but now all my time was only about working and thinking of family… I then planned to escape… I was doing it at a late night…Though; I still was caught by the soldiers and was sent to meet the Queen next morning… Emmm… I was so scared… I knew she saved me, kind to me and yeah, also loved me… but I still planned to leave her…just because of my family… I did miss them… In the same big room I was in previously which looked like a court, the Queen looked at me with her stand still generous eyes while I was kneeing and looking down after seeing her eyes…

- She asked me…”Was it difficult to stay here my girl?”
- I replied…”No majesty, I knew I was not living here as the servant, you were so kind to me… I had my personal room and I was ordered to do anything seem just to release my boring time… I could choose not to do… I lived like a high class person… Though, majesty, be honest, I already had a family, my hubby, my son and I deeply missed them… please! Lets me go and meet them!”
- She was silent little bit and then answered... “So sorry sweetie to separate you from your family… I really didn't know at all… However, I just couldn't let you go out of here…That was our palace’s rule… since this was the hidden place… no one of outside world would be allowed to know…”
- I replied confidently, “Majesty, please believe me! I promised to keep it confidential till the end of my life… please!!!”
- She responded… ”This was the rule my girl… I really couldn't break the rule that my generation had been created hundreds long time… she sadly said…only the dead whom could leave from here….How about if I wanted you to forget all the past and continued living here? I would make you the princess or to marry one of my sons and you could choose who he would be… Isn't that possible sweetie?”

I then was just crying and denied to marry… so she decided to accept me as her daughter… Made my living to be very luxury… dress in white beautiful dress with right and left servants… Both of Queen’s sons were allowed to meet me if I agreed…coz we all were just alike siblings… Of course, I did welcome them… However; I still couldn't erase my family from my heart…my mind, my soul… I loved sitting by the window… seeing the beautiful garden outside the room and blowing my mind a way with my sadly tears…

Suddenly, I heard my mom was calling me… huh, was she coming here to rescue me??? I tried to turn around to find her… but still couldn't see… then, I felt my body was shaken… my mom voice was hearing again… “Wake up! Wake up my daughter!!!”
Finally, my life in the secret castle came to the final… My mom said she saw me was sleeping and crying… she was afraid if I had nightmare, that’s why she tried to awake me… Obviously, it was a sad dream… Being in the beautiful place with only the body… there was no happiness… Thank mom for saving me from that creepy time… Very thank mom!!!

That was all how I felt in the dream and on that day I waked up from the dream… Yeahh, all was just a dream… By the way, I was always awaked/ helped by my mom or dad whenever I was so down…no matter dream or reality… They are my real lively Gods!

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