Thursday, September 20, 2018

Someone Like You



[Verse 1]
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

[Pre-Chorus]
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over

[Chorus]
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I beg
"I'll remember," you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

[Verse 2]
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

[Pre-Chorus]
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over

[Chorus]
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I beg
"I'll remember," you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

[Bridge]
Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

[Breakdown]
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
"Don't forget me," I beg
"I'll remember," you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

[Chorus]
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I beg
"I'll remember," you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead


One Silent Night with my Little Boy

My smallest boy of 3 years old still doesn’t sleep yet. It is quite silent in my village from this mid night; all we could hear is the barking sound from my neighbors’ dogs… Well, in our house, there are only me, my big son and my this little cutie. Their dad is on business trip to abroad while the big boy fell asleep a few hours already. I cannot sleep before my smallest boy anyway but I always accompany him until he falls asleep first that I can too since he is so young…

Immediately, my little boy goes to sit in front of the mirror and keeps smiling! I’m so scared for his reaction, he calls me to see with him and he points into the mirror… I close my eyes and drag him to hug… He pushes me out and goes back to his seat… He still smiles happily in front of the mirror… It’s scary to me at this moment; yet I still want to know what it is. I go to sit next to him and look into the mirror but I see nothing strange. I ask him why does he smile? He points to the mirror again and speaks out lout…”Papa!!! Mak Mak”…
Hahahha…. Actually, he sees the reflection of my wedding photo which hangs on the wall, opposite to the mirror and my little boy may miss his daddy!

Then, he walks around and stops to see the top wall of the room…
“Mak Mak, there!!!”
I look up but I don’t see anything differently….
He continues, “See? Mak Mak!”
I answers him, “I see nothing baby!”
He crosses his hand, looks at me smirkly and says…”The clock! Lets sleep!”
I’m be like… ahhh… just something so? Oh gosh!

Heheheh…. We go to sleep!

That night, nothing goes wrong but only my imagination… Imagination in inappropriate way could kill me. All I believe, it is that my little baby boy could see the ghost or spirit! Hahahaha….




             
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Friday, September 14, 2018

Become a Victim Again

It was three months I already spent my time in my current working place and it seem just a blink of eye! Though here didn’t give me such butterflies feeling in my stomach as my previous place, yet here is also beautiful enough to live with. People are kind and understanding with their warm treat to me.

Mr. Mature is that nice to me too.
When I first met Mr. Mature, he admired me and he indirectly told me to come here since I may have chance to be promoted… Then, I joined and I have been working with him… I got more and more appreciation directly, indirectly from my work… Even I often remind myself to not trust anyone words so much nor any promises, I still fell into his words and thought I was doing quite well. I was a bit proud I confessed…

However, I yesterday found out something ridiculous…
Regardless of Mr. Mature’s kind words to me; simultaneously, he reported to Mr. King (our top leader) a bit differently. He requests for a new comer since he thought I and my team seems not strong enough and he wants that new comer urgently. That new comer is meant to control me and the rest of team after him… This is a vacant I was notified during my first time meeting with Mr. Mature… I was a bit shocked to know this and all his previous admired wordings are breaking into pieces…
I got lost…
I wondered how can this guy be this different from in front and the back side?
I also blamed myself for cannot doing a really good job to get his real appreciation…
I made my Expected Chance disappear myself…
Yeah, I became a Victim again from my own inner beating…
If I get beat from other, it is another story but this is how I beat myself and I am suffering myself…
I told my best friend and she encouraged me to speak up for something I wanted… Though, I feel it already went to an end. I acknowledged the real judgement from him this late, it is hard to adjust…

Yesterday, I thought I should just accept it and lets it go… I should act calmly and silently since my commitment to stay here is one year up. It’s hurt to get promise broken from other, that is why I don’t dare to break my own promise, my own commitment…
BUT, I won’t blame Mr. Mature. This is his judgement and believing.
Back then, I myself who rose up my own hope, he never promised to promote me anyway… He just shared me there is that chance, that vacant…

Today, I am different! I won’t beat my yesterday self but I want to change the way I thought of being calmly and silently… I come up today with something challenging. Turn all those comments into chance! It is quite good to know his judgement. The reality mostly hurts us, yet it is better than to live with illusion.
I would work on my own project to strengthen myself,
I would adjust what I should adjust on myself,
I would show the world I am not the way he sees right now,
I would prove I’m the priceless diamond,
I would prove it for sure!
I would secretly learn all the management skills from the managements here and,
I would also note down their negativities for my own avoiding,
I would take risk in 2020 to be someone different,
I would only need times to gain the right knowledge,
I would make myself a management or in a level that could earn well,
And I know I wouldn’t be always positive but I would feed my positivity more,
Therefore, I would recover from self-blaming, self-suffering quicker and quicker!!!

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

New People


During these recently, I’m being around with many new people in my Greenland Empire. Of course, there were some days we had opposite opinions, yet there were many days we were getting along quite well. We talk, we share, we tease, we laugh from our fun time we often had together!

They are:

1. Mr. King of Greenland Empire: he is warm, he is quite optimistic and of course, he is so caring with such a strong leadership.

2. Mr. After King: He is quite funny and super dirty mind! Hahaha… Well, I like him a lot and he is that rich in management capacity with entrepreneur perspective.

3. Mr. Mature: He is one of the management here too. He is alike a calm water while I at first was alike a throwing stone into that water which made it became turbulent… I just feel he was a bit swaying coz of me… Maybe because he is calm and positive while I am a bit aggressive and a bit negative… lol… And sometime, I even show him his thought isn’t on the same track with me…

4. Ms. Sweet: She is a so nice management and sweet speaking with expert in communication. She has straight forward interaction, yet in a kind words.

5. Mr. Gentle: yeah, his appearance is a gentle man, a gentle management while his dirty mind is at that high level too… lol…

6. Ms. Elegant: Her level is after Ms. Sweet. She is also a straight forward person but her words most often could hurt other but just I could see, people try to hide their real emotion from her words. So, Ms. Elegant may not know she has spoken roughly. However, she has good intention and a generous lady too.

7. Mr. Funny: hehehe… he is working with Mr. After King and he is also funny. He is sensitive by the way and he also had some grudges, yet he also could release his grudge well enough. He loves sharing his knowledge and is willing to help other.

8. Ms. Kitty: she loves Cat the most, so I call her so… hehehe… She is clear, mature and has exact plan on her job. Sometime, she seems so silent while sometime, it’s hard to control her making noise… lol

9. Ms. Flower: that is her real name, flower. She has good and understanding personality. She also has management attitude whereas she isn’t the management yet. To me, I like her but I could see some people here mind her this attitude secretly…

10. Ms. Youngest: She is such a very cheerful young lady who is quite positive and good consideration, fair judgement.

11. Ms. Jung Un’s Sister: She looks quiet but well, when I get to know her more, she is noisy too! Lol… She knows how to be joking well, just she doesn’t often show it…

12. Ms. Sad Aunt: She looks much sensitive to all matters, this is how people judge her. However, she isn’t really so to me and she treats me so friendly.

13. Ms. Icy: Heheheh… people call her so since she loves having ice drinks even when she catches a cold. She is a smart lady and mature.

14. Mr. ZoMyGod: His joke is from how he repeats other’s people words. People won’t always get their wordings right when they are speaking and at the moment people get it wrong, Mr. ZoMyGod gonna catches it well to turn into joke… Hahaha... Last but not least, he also has error words and people gonna catch him back and laugh! xD

15. Mr. Reading: His favorite is reading, everyone knows and on his birthday, he got several good books as his gift! He feels blessed and he loves it.

16. Ms. Angel: This is how her husband calls her! Her husband shows a lot of loves to her and he doesn’t feel shy to call her “Angel” even on social media! She is a lucky wife and she deserves it.

17. Ms. Beautiful: The most beautiful lady in my team. She is white, tall, slim, young, charming face and generous. I once wondered what is her negative point? No one is perfect, that is why I was wondering… Or maybe she is the exceptional case, isn’t she? hehehe…

18. Ms. CFO: hehehe… She is my teammate and since her husband is the CEO of her company, I secretly give her a name of CFO! XD She is an open-minded person, easy going and honest. Spending time with her is worth it, I never get bored, she is quite humorous! Lol… Surely, she is rich but she is humble and she treats people nicely.

19. Ms. Cinderella: She is the last one of my list and SHE IS ME! XD My most beloved name, Cinderella or Rella! No more description... XD

Thursday, September 6, 2018

Eva Rich


She is sexy, beautiful, seems quite smart and seducing! Lol

I just got to know her and she is very straight forward. Her expression is extremely what she feels. Well, I love her a lot! I do love her! Hehe…

AND She is Eva Rich, the sticker from Telegram Application. xD








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