Early Pics with X'mas Trees

Cambodia, we have no greeting season of Christmas; though, it is kinda worldwide special occasion which most of countries will celebrate even some countries have no falling snow. Some people is celebrating this occasion for reminding about Jesus Christ but another part of the world is celebrating that event for entertainment only. Whatever their purpose is in doing that, they all who celebrate for Merry Christmas are just like the cells to support this greeting seasons. Back to my country, well, it is not that easy to see the X'mas tree especially the big ones. We may find them at supermarket or some big companies only. However, I'm so glad that I could find the X'mas Tree easily even it is just a mini one... It is at a branch of current company I'm working for... and of course, I got several posts with it... ^__________^

FAMILY

Accidentally, I saw an online story.... just then is reading and it is as following:

FAMILY

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.
But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake that night in my bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you
use, but the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise.
You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Please wake up, little one," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway,"
I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

What is the moral of this story???
Well, it seems describing about me... right?!
Most of times, I'm just speaking so harshly to my hubby... and so does he...
BUT we both always say that nicely to other who are not our family...!!! X(
I'm so touching just coz of this story....

I wish he is pretending...

The day that I keep remembering, the special day...especially for a newly couple as us... our 3^rd anniversary... is on today, 8th Dec! I suppose there will be any special event happens... Maybe my man will make me that really surprising... in such a fantastic party... or maybe it is a romantic couple dinner... I suppose we will hug each other and dance... in the orange blurring candle’s bright... and there is a slow elegant heart-taken song... Well, we can also make it simpler than that... we may have a family gathering party... cheer up and eat with a lot of laughs... all I want is a sweet or remarkable memory.... However, I see none of his reaction to our this special day... I afraid he may forget... I try to give him the hints... I try to ask him if what day will be today. He asks me back... “Why? What happens?” My expression is like... =___=~?!...
I ask myself if he is pretending or he is well remembering none?!

This is yet just a half day of our special day... Hopefully he is pretending... Hopefully he at least should say... “Happy our Anniversary Honey!” Hopefully he isn’t that talented guy in putting something special into such so tasteless one... He may pretend only... 

Angel but just a bitch, Prince but just a bastard

Recently, just too mad with surrounding occurring unfair things.... what a world is it? There is no justice... Just so sick to see the poor, the people who have no social connection, no treasure and are treated quite unacceptable... The rich and the poor, while insisting for the same thing, the rich could get help easily while the poor just got cursed for being disability in doing that little stuff by themselves....

Why are you so, the world? Real bitches, real witches and bastards are real existing... and they are playing as the soul of some human being.... Some look just beautiful as an angel, handsome as a prince with the generous face, the sweet speech...but actually is stored by a f***ing cruel soul... No way that kinda human will help all people but only the ones who will give them the benefits.... How come people become this too harsh???

I have only intention to rescue those who need help but I have no power... So, I only be that girl who is doing in facilitation but cannot set or reach the direction as always wish... Oh world, why do you give such the power to the one who is not deserved? Such a disaster!

DO you absolutely exist, Karma? Come on guy, come to pay those bitches, witches, bastards of their act on increasing sin.... I only have you to believe in now... 

"Mad" by Neyo

Some songs are just so....emmmmm....perfect...in describing human's circumstance and emotion.... So does this one, its lyric is talking about me, my relationship and it is quite correct... it is saying what I wonder... what I wanna say... assured for 100%! >___< '

LYRICS:

"Mad" by Neyo

Oh, oh, oh,

Oh, oh, ummm

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking

Ummm nobody's talking, 'cause talking just turns into screaming (oh,)

And now as I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,

All that that means is neither of us are listening,

And what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for nothing (fighting for),

Nothing (crying for),

Nothing (ooh,h)

But we won't let it go for nothing (don't let for),

Nothing.

It should be nothing

To a love like what we got oh, baby

I know sometimes it's gonna rain

But baby can we make up now

'cause I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)?

Girl I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me (oh, no)

Umm

And it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing

(asking questions like you already know)

We're fighting this war, baby, when both of us are losing

(this ain't the way that love is supposed to go. What happened to working it out?)

We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down,

So what the hell do we do now?

It's all for nothing (fighting for)

Nothing (crying for),

Nothing... (ooh,h)

We won't let it go for nothing (don't let for),

Nothing.

It should be nothing

To a love like what we got oh, baby

I know sometimes it's gonna rain (Oh, it's gonna rain),

But baby can we make up now

'cause I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)?

Girl I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me (oh, no)

Oh, baby this love ain't gon' be perfect (perfect, perfect oh, no)

And just how good it's gonna be

We can fuss and we can fight

Long as everything is alright

Between us before we go to sleep...

Baby we're gonna be...

Happy....

Oh, ....oh,

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain (it's gonna rain),

But baby can we make up now (can we make up now?)

'cause I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)?

Girl I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me (oh, no, no, no)

It Hurts

Such a song that could make me feel so tough whenever I listen to...

I'm de Secret-Beauty-Princess XD

Do you know Cinderella? Of course, I'm just a like her...hehehe.... I meant the relation of some kinda circumstance... Poor messy Cinderella becomes a very beautiful princess because of the magic of  the God Mother and so do I... My ordinary facial shape girl with that small eyes, flat nose, a bit thick lips, large face and curly hair are turn into the type of cute sweetie one because of the magic of Cosmetic...well, I meant Make-Up... XD

Most of people always say that my photos mostly are just too different from my reality....Aiiii, just coz they never see me outside for dat type of party while I take my selfie only when I'm that pretty too...First I feel awkward to hear their words...but later is...Proud to be me! Why not? Isn't that great? wahahhaa..... 

#love#my#selfie#myself#

His Hidden Emotion

There is a moment lately when I’m on the car with my husband to join the wedding party... Oh lord, oh my country, I leave home since around 6pm but is getting to the place of around 8pm just because of that crazily stuck in the traffic jam... People whom look like in a well education with luxury transportation but poor morality and non of sense to respect other... They care non of traffic rule but just try their best in going toward their destination no matter what... And cause of that, we all are late... =_=^

To kill the most boring time during our journey in the busy city’s street, we, I & my hubby keep talking about this and that non stop until we start a topic of our dream... Well, I tell him of my dream since young age... “I dream to be a very good wife in our personal independent house with quite well managed on my household job, cook the delicious food with a good care to all my kids. I tell him I dream to study further since I wanna be a knowledgeable mom and guide my children to the right place... I dream to stay all day and night with them... Give them the warmth of love that mom should have.... I wanna be a very cool housewife.... However, after I get married, I’m just forced to work even harder... no anyone forces me but my family stability... our economy... There looks like nothing walking on the flow of my this dream...I need to go to work since 8am in the morning until around 6.30pm in the evening; I’m just getting home... I’m still living with my mom even I get married... I could stay with my kid only a few hours and he will sleep... At the same time, food and household tasks have been well prepared by mom...she even gets more tired than while I'm in single life... I have really less time with them too and especially my little kiddo... Of course, I don’t feel at ease...”

I actually don’t mean to hurt my husband but we’re just sharing our dream... Though, I hear his response to my dream and it’s damn touching me.... he says sadly that, “Coz I’m not a good husband... I’m foolish... I’m that useless for cannot offer my wife the comfortable one...but only a rough life". Hearing he says so, I feel I’m saying lately of something affect to his heart... His short sentence brings millions definitions... Maybe he feel ashamed as I’m looking down on him or maybe he feel guilty... However, what he says, really make me so sorry... It is not his mistakes in reality... This shows as he always dreams to make my living a high standard one... It seems he means to put me into a happily wife’s life... He may love his wife quite huge... he may regret that need to lets me work, right? Isn’t this his hidden emotion? I’m so speechless, excited and feeling like I want sobbing... I extremely feel sorry for saying my dream....

Emmm, you may feel I’m that too stupid dramatically lady... Although, I’m so touching for seeing his facial expression.... Yeah, I am! nahh, I guarantee you would feel the same if you are in this situation...

Apologize me my honey if I hurt you... I’m just that hurt too...

High Education or Experience with high Wage???

Well, after graduated from Bachelor Degree on December 2011, I and my colleges friends are walking toward different destination. I got married, working harder and harder...and until recently, I become a senior staff... Look at my Bachelor friends... some are working and upgrade their positions as well...while most of them are still continuing their studying to the next level of Master Degree and of course, that is scholarship which some is to China, Vietnam, Thailand, Korea, USA and even England...Oh God!!! I'm damn envious of them.... It seems over to me...right? I don't think if I could pass those scholarship exams just maybe my brain already goes to sleep mood...lol...and I have no idea too...how come I could pass scholarship papers test for my Bachelor Degree last several years? lol...

I wish I could get Master Certificate from abroad as them....sad me....

Here is my chitchat with a bachelor friend whom now he is in Master Degree courses in Thailand... He appreciates what I achieve from my experience while I'm so starving to get what he recently is doing...lol....

Funny Quotes of Crush

hehehe.... of course, such so funny of these below quotes about your crushes... Admit it! You really feel so at some edges of your life and it quite mock you....wahahhaa....Just keep smiling, blushing and laughing coz of these following quotes....

F***ing Idiot!

Emmm, where should I start about my complaint here? Okay, lets start from the first part... My Head of Department (HoD) got an invitation since last month from some types of Agency to join a seminar which all participators are HR, Recruiter (experience more than 5 years) and CEO whom is more than 10 years experiences... It required to register online... and my HoD cannot register at all due to the line was error... Until last few days before the event will start soon, that guy sent that invitation to me (I have only 4 years plus experience in this field) and requested me to register to join that seminar....maybe coz I'm nearby 5 years experience..that's why I was invited...and I was glad to grab that offered chance... such an opportunity to meet many professional people....

And I got success on registration while there was also an email to confirm....

I then informed my HoD to register too via the line I have just done with since we both can go together.... She after told me, she got well registered by my line too...so she would join the seminar with me....However, just several minutes she got confirmation email as me...I got another email to reject me...

Huh, I failed to join that seminar coz of lacking to seminar's requirements....must be years experience...and I feel I got cheated...coz the one whom invited me is my circle in linkedin (a kind of social media)...he would already well-checked on my background before sending me message...so I responded them via that rejected email back to seek for why...

Non email has answered to me... No choices, I went back to the first guy whom invited me from linkedin... and something happened afterward as following...

And he doesn't dare to respond me any more coz I caught his weak point....

Actually, he tried to invite me since my manager didn't do the registration....however, after he had seen my manager's registration....he rejected me.... oh ma... such a non sense guy... no respect in his fucking brain.... Of course, I do understand of this kinda seminar after those stuff happened...that seminar would require only a person from a company to join...so there will be multi-company to join.... Whatever, I would feel better if he told me the reality.... Just be straight to me is enough...  I know I would still feel abit ashamed but at least I could feel at ease... That VN bastard really ruined my day of yesterday... a blue day to me... you're such dirty bullshit guy... quite unacceptable... I shall get invitation from a dog, be its friend better than that stupid asshole... That was his problem, he should confess...though, he tried to turn the mistake that I forbid to join coz of myself... hmmm.... feeling like I got burned in the flame...

I'm just a reserved...a replacement to that jerk's event... quite shameful and feel downgrade that I met that shit fake professional guy....or all he said might right, might real...he still then is kinda extremely careless staff...to do something without any checking... and all his act meant looking down to other...

Really love you, RAINING DAY!

A full night with quite peaceful sleeping;

I hear frog and its fellows sing;

tik-tok-tik-tok...there’s also rain dropped rhythm;

That means so lovely to me!

Until another new day starts;

Since the dawn till now of afternoon at 4pm;

Such a day with foggy little showers;

That's alike non-stop watering from sky.

Oh lord, I can’t hide my real feeling;

I’m deep in this beautiful thing; though it’s may annoying to other;

Really can’t ignore, so please register me into your fan club;
I really love you, RAINING DAY!

One of my Lucky Plants LOST!

Today morning, when I arrived my working place...I noticed my lucky plants and found there’s one was stolen. I was so shocked to see since it is my favorite plants... I love it not only about the belief that it is a lucky plant but coz it has green lovely color; easy to grow and take care... I was so furious... I shouted to ask all the staff in the same floor with me if anyone saw anybody come to my table and took it...I was so serious... I cursed that thief nonstop... Until I can’t forbid myself and got the idea to check security camera...actually, I didn’t mean to mess up with that thief but just wanna know who that was... I complained loudly of my loss... Finally, I went to ask my IT colleague to check security camera for me...and unexpectedly, that thief whom I cursed badly came out to confess... He is also my colleagues in my 3^rd floor with me... such the most gentle man and respectful while his department is next to mine...Oh lord!!! I was quite awkward to hear his confessing... I was almost speechless... I felt guilty to be that too much on this kinda stuff...All my anger disappeared and placed with regret that I acted so unacceptable if flashback to the moment I believed it must be someone else beside my colleagues here... he told me that... he and his girlfriend just bought a fish glass with a few fishes..and they forgot to buy some plants...that’s why... Thus, this lucky plant is believed to be stolen for good Feng Shui... (This second reason, I’ve well known long time too... but I just can’t bear with after I met...lol)

My anger real melted and came up with self-guilty... 

-____________________-

I'm feeling BAD!

One of my colleague who is so good at playing around in speech and so do I..that is why we get closely quickly...day by day, we keep mocking each other...we laugh together...and some of our words also make us feeling disappointed...angry at some edge...Still, we never give up our this bad attitude of teasing... So does the work...we always share each other...comment on disadvantages... and I keep guiding her on the new tasks since I joined long time before her and I know more....Until yesterday, I told her she was doing this wrong and doing that wrong...be honest, that was my constructive criticism...Though, I found she got mad with me...She interrupted my speech while I was doing my explanation of why she was wrong...She yelled at me..."Don't speak too much, it takes much time..blah blah blah..." and continued, "okay, I'm wrong and always wrong..."and she walked out from our conversation... She looked furious coz of my words lately...She may considered my positive criticism as I blamed her badly...and seem she was seriously wrong...Actually, I was really blaming her but in the way of work and teasing...However, this time she took it serious... This is my first day of September....such a lesson...and I found three sentences to remind myself....
1. Don't expect if people will always see your comments as constructive criticism but they may just feel you are putting them down to the deep of the dark hell...
2. Mind my words well before letting them out....
3. If possible, don't get involve in other business...mind my own should be enough! X(

Phew....!!!!!

I got Promoted... ~___________~

People would be really excited and proudly to be promoted; though, it seems strange to me... I feel so nervous and mix up. Of course, such an untidy feeling I meet... I feel surprised and unexpected... I don’t really feel ready to get this opportunity... Such a stress mood... It takes a night to think of obvious problems that cause me to be so... Then I see... I get promoted without any pre-inform to me...Though, it is not so strange but there is something quite stranger than this... There is no any discussion to all my team as well... They look so awkward to hear this hot information...some looks fine to hear while some looks so unsatisfied to know it... They may think it is communist...without any discussion from team...Nahhh, Communist never exists in my favorite list...I love freedom... I love democracy... Everyone wanna do something bigger... So do I...but in a proper way than this surprised promotion... I still need team to support me... Once they feel so, will they be able to accept me from their heart and soul? Okay...maybe they won’t accept me... Even so, I will still try my best to accomplish all my responsibility and make it done well... I will be so exhausted...that’s okay... However, the most hatred point to me is that... I so hate to work in such a non team sprit... a team that is dominated...a team with criticism... How long would I be able to stay in this kinda circumstance?? Get promoted but it look like even worse... :[

So far and so forth, I can’t even understand myself immediately... that’s why time is always the best medicine...the best way to release problems...

Such so complicated FEELING

What is going on of my inner feeling now? I feel so complicated... I’m not sure what I exactly want... My inner world used to be so peaceful without any envy; though, right now I feel so messy... That seems there are two human being in my this single body...one is so starving to get that stuff while another say she doesn’t care of what happens...no matter who takes that stuff, it’s not her business since it doesn’t mean only to be her possession since first step... Still, the first say that at first moment, she deserves to get it and even allow to get it but just a glance, that stuff is taken and give to the new person... and that new person is someone she won’t willing to fight for getting back that stuff..coz it is the best stuff that person should catch...especially, that person is someone she likes...she can’t sacrificed to achieve for herself but better for that person... Actually it is also her choice...to give up and encourage that person to get...but one of her feeling still feel a bit of regret... Gold chance arrives... why she’s brave to lets it go? How come it happens?

Whatever, she absolutely understands one real feeling of herself...if that is not that person; she will never give up and would jump into that battle to get that stuff! NO DOUBT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS; SHE WILL OVERCOME COZ SHE BELIEVES SHE WILL WIN FOR SURE!

The one who’s so ambitious to get it is me...and the one who agree to lets it be in another’s hand, is also me...I’m in this condition is just alike Alice and that stuff is alike White Rabbit which will guide me the way to enter Wonderland... now that White Rabbit is lost... I won’t be able to reach my goal unless I find another White Rabbit...Oh my...!!!

Green Raincoat ^_________^

Remember of that day while it was cats and dogs raining as today, it was almost my leaving time from work. I had to leave even there's no raincoat and it’s heavy rain since if I wait, I will stuck in that traffic jam with floody street and my motorbike may also stop working coz of that plenty water...Then, my honey called to ask me if I didn't have raincoat so he would bought for me... Yeah!!! I said YES...but I also said...at least he could bring me the green one or I won’t take it...hahahaha... He yelled at me... "Yisss, do you still think of your favorite color in this kinda condition?" hehehe... ma intention got success... I knew he wouldn't be able to calm down from my overboard words since that is his nature...his real type... Just meant to put him in fire..gagaga...

Around 20 mins passed...he called me to take the raincoat...awww....he brought me the Green one...while he’s wet of his full body...and I asked him why...he said...coz he tried to travel around to find the green one first but until he found it...he’s totally wet...there’s no use to buy for himself.... I was so excited...hehehe...he took my words seriously and tried to make it happened though he thought it’s too much...lol...

At the same time, I wonder...how silly he was...why didn't he buy the raincoat and wore it first before went around to find for me? Such a silly lovely honey to me! :*

P.S. He looked so sexy with his wet white shirt, some rain-drop on his face n that wet messy hair; plus with his seem strict face while handed that raincoat to me... Love that landscape at that moment. Such a stunned handsome guy and sweet as well! lol... :* :* :*

Cutie Gift from Cutie Gal :D

My friend, closed one, lovely one and sweetie one just came back from vacation in Vietnam and she doesn't forget in choosing such a cutie gift for me as a clock...so fit with my working desk...feeling so fresh and that's my taste my interest! yayyyy!!!! ^^

Here it is...

The Same Person but Different...

Once you meet a guy whom is quite unique to you...from his so sweet caring...he always asks if you are fine...worry of you...even find out whenever you are unhappy...be with you all the time, make you smile, make you laugh and show as you are his girl in front of all people and even the only one... act as proudly to have you... pretty happy to be with you... no matter where he is, he still call to visit you...say he misses you...love you and even say that wanna marry you...You seem have no negative parts to him...This is a kind of Boyfriend that exists in this world... You just can’t say directly but actually you already agree to give the rest of your life be a long with him...really love him, excited and fall into romance and pinky world once there is him...Image and memory of your marvelous day together remain in both pure hearts... Finally, you both got married... 

HOWEVER, after married, life have been changed...that boyfriend whom is now your husband become so rough from time to time...become rude and arrogant, selfish and criticizes you, your appearance from toe to head... don’t really focus on your emotion...lets and push problems falling on you....keep challenging when anything happen for his defending to be the one whom is right... and cause you are not that easy to be fought... you keep challenging him back..such a revenge...you keep remembering all his mistakes..and he acts the same...problems re-happen..you both take those mistakes as reference to get challenging again...the scene of cool war real happen...lastly a party must get right...but what’s then? The right one still don’t look like happy to be a winner... and the loser still store anger in heart...even there have been found for who is right and who is wrong...but nothing get better...both sides keep silent to each other...from second to second...minutes to minutes...hours to hours and days to days...they still become speechless to each one... what’s then??

Sometime, you, a couple, really don’t know what is the proper way to act... if there is mistake and you won’t say it out...it will even gain...in contrast, if you say it out...there will be a debate war or if one keeps silent and lets another win...that person will keep remembering and ache in heart and soul..once it becomes more and more, it will explode one day..and argument will be even bigger...or if you may want to forget all of mistakes...forgive and forget...but are you sure you really can do it? You both afterward just really keep silent and be a part.... You both absolutely know that causing argument is nothing but damaging the relation of yours...You know it...and still lets it happen...WHY???

Sweet Cartoon Couple

I just get to know these kind of couple cartoon today from ma best friend (we crazily love that types a lot) while I really don't know where they may come from. It looks like from Vietnam or sth but I'm not sure at all....Here, it is not different from other cartoons; just like danbo, emo, Korean cartoon, Chinese painting; which are all deep in romance of love relationship....their emotions are purely shown up with the fresh jolly smile of love, be cheerful together, sweet, enjoy the beautiful world and as well as the feeling of dumb, hurt, despise, depressed, jealousy, self-pity, overwhelmed, separated etc...

You will feel them once you see their facial expression in these pictures...