RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

Recently is just mad with this song; "Louch Sne Doung Chan", the new cover one. However, I love only the half first while the half last, the rap part...just feel it's a bit harsh... lol *** The beginning of this song brings me some unique feeling from the old time...the old me... Let's enjoy!

I'm fine, you know?  It's nothing big... I only cry while listen to the sad songs, And just cry by listening and watching the sweet scene, I'm just sobbing listening to the confessing love's words, Back then, I'm fine... I'll try to be this fine as long as possible... Even actually my heart seems already broke into pieces, My tears are just falling down while writing here, Yeahh... I'm not seriously until dead, I'm still living, I'm still breathing, Even though, I'm feeling like I'm dying while living, Don't confuse if I'm silly, I'm not at all,  I'm just fine in the wrong way, I'm just living day by day, In the environment I never dream of, Uhmmm, I can't feel of love lately, I'm alike breathless whenever thinking of this, Go and back, nothing I think I can do, Many related stories tie me, Just the way I cannot leave this world easily, Even if I sometime decide to be, I have no choice, But...

I would like to pray for all the loss of the lives over the world.. Please accept my deepest sympathy.... Before I could say "Pray for our world", my pray was dedicated to the French people only...and something has changed me.... Last several days, there was a terrorist attacks in Paris, France. There were shooting, bombing which caused more than one hundred people died; plus, more than four hundred people were sending to the hospital from their injuries during that time. The French President announced the state of emergency. The media around the world reported this news. People all over the world knew it and we did feeling sad and regret for the loss; including me and many people in my country. I saw an application in Facebook for changing our profile picture into French Flat to show our condolences... I did it! However, a big part of reaction to our sympathy of the loss of French was seen in many different ways... First, I thought they were too much for even jealous...

The same question that I try to raise up for exploring the answer from him.... "Why do you always tend not to take selfie with me? Or any photos together? " is my question to him... His first time answer, "Are you too free to just even mind about this type of stuff?" Second time answer, "the same answer, plus, I'm so sleepy, can u just stop this stupid question?" Third time.... Me: I still wonder why? Why can't be me but our kids do okay?" Him: I can't imagine you can even jealous with our children...blah blah blah" He keeps ignoring to answer me while I keep exploring for the answer.... Today, forth time.... Me: Tell me why? Help me to erase my doubt please! Him: what's wrong in your body? Me: Answer me and I will never ask you again... Him: Nothing, just I dislike selfie or photo capturing.... Me: Then why could you take photos with our kids? Selfie with your friends and even selfie with that group of ladies? Him:...

Uhmmm….hehehehe…. I last few days was moving my working desk and of course, I found an A4 document in Khmer Language which I tended to throw it into to rubbish bin but I noticed it was my hand writing letters. So, I kept a spot there and was reading if what it was exactly… Ah ha, hehehe… I felt blushing during reading… the answers of mine to those questions in that A4 document was just too clear as the reflection to the mirror…show to the point of what is my most desire of life….lol… “Money!!!!” I was too straight to share about these kinda ideas… I was damn brave to say it out… Thus, I was quite high self-esteem, very confident and really had high spirit of encouragement, motivation, loves and hope!!! I almost couldn’t believe that was me… if comparing to my pity me currently… I feel I already lost those types of personality…lol See the following detail: