RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

I’m surrounding by cobras and pythons… I think if I won’t interfere or attack their lives, We all might get peace. Though, cobras won’t be any kind to me, They still try to attack humanity, Even I don’t mean to be next to them. Unlike the pythons, They are so fond of me, They are crawling, playing and won’t abandon me. I trust pythons are my friends, But just a bit later, I get clues from my sense, Those pythons are only measuring my real size, why? Those pythons don’t treat me the same way I am with them, They only are preparing to eat me, Know my exact size so they can swallow easily…. Seeing so, cobras aren’t so scary, They won’t hesitate and be real enemy, Which pythons are just fake friends and gonna stab me coldly! “We would be hurt to get attacked from our enemies, whereas it would be enormously hurt to get attacked from someone we treat as friends!”

I used to be isolated by a group of people who seem love and care much to their peers; I used to appreciate the kind of relationship they are having for each other; Until one day…. Their group’s main members are three, including their powerful leader. It is time a powerful leader is needed to leave for the new group. So, their group remains only two and among them, there will be one to be promoted to the new leader instead. They both have their own strengths. Finally, a person gets selected. I don’t think anything will happen since they were so closed but it is contrasting to what I thought. After that person gets promoted, that person starts changing. The behavior is changed into the leader one that won’t really treat the remains last strong member the same way it used to be. The most unexpected thing, that new leader is saying something negatively to the previous leader. They used to be alike one spirit, I don’t think at all it can happen. That new leader is even trying ...

It has been two years up to now that I get no single chance to visit the sea. I miss it badly!  I love the street nature on the way going there and I bet you would love it too. There are forests, green fields, a lot of trees, streams, mountains, flowers and waterfall! I love being in the nice hotel/guesthouse’s room there while I don’t need to do any clean or even can lets it messy but it will be done so tidy like magic…lol… I love eating food there, when I don’t need to cook at all… I love being in my ancient bikini ^^, jumping in the water of those beautiful pools in the hotel/guesthouse and walking around and around in the water… Then, get up from water, walking like no one is seeing me and go to lay on the chair next to the pool with my sunglasses, drinking orange juice and jump in the water again…hahaha I love dressing with my loosing white shirt, along with my so short jeans and flip-flop shoes, falling my hair and walking freely on the beach, picking those seashel...

There is a place I wanted to move to. I got confirmed to do it. However, I don’t really feel secure even I got an exact positive feedback coz it was the feedback from the people who I acknowledge they don’t like me at all. I don’t trust if it can come true for sure, just I won’t give up easily when I want to do something. So I proposed it. My instinct is correct again. It is almost the time I will be moved, I get informed as so sorry but they have someone else to get that place. Cool!!! Well done!!! Is it also called intuition? Whatever, do appreciate my this feeling with some pain along with. I just want to be closed with them so I decided to move from my most beloved place for them but they put a strong wall, such a barrier between us. I’m sad for almost 5 minutes! Lol… It can’t hurt me longer than this. If comparing to what I have been through; unfair, the isolated world, no loyal friends here, being discriminated, alien treated, this case then is very small, very l...

The traffic today is so awful… After work, I try to go through many ways in order to get my home; however, it is not that easy. I reach Beong Kengkong market, so I go straight to across one traffic light and go on while along the street, there are many big tall trees that give such a nice shade for travelers. I do appreciate this nature; release our stress from long time in traffic jam! Lol… I reach a school of a ministry there and the gate is opened. I ride in that school coz it has a path to the big street. Today is weekend, I wonder why the school is opened; it is strange. Riding on my motor across that school, I see a group of grandpas are playing cheese… When my motor goes over that group, I recklessly look into my motor mirror but there are no any people so I stop the motor and turn back… I really don’t see those grandpas… However, I see them again in the motor mirror… I feel scared and turn back second time, I see them again while there is one grandpa turn and smile at me…....

     

Uhmmm….so beautiful dreams I got…lol => Night One I was at a resort that surrounding by mountains… At a dining table with a guy who seemed an athletic (his strong body shape…), we were in a high class restaurant next to those mountains. While we were waiting for meal, I moved from my seat to stand near the mirror wall to see view outside of green mountains. Suddenly, I saw two of my colleagues (one female and one male) there. They were climbing the mountain and they could speed up quite quick while there was exact mountain’s path but they didn’t use that path at all. They were out of path and I wonder how it seemed so easy that way. I talked to that man next to me, “I wanted to do that too! It looked so cool!” He walked to me and cuddled me, “Why? Being here with me wasn’t that warm and chill enough? Let’s me stand by your side, okay?” How could I say no to his question? Lol… I smiled and nodded… We were there just like no one was around us… Spending ti...

Chheng Meng Days this year was just like a family trip lol. We were departure since the dawn from Phnom Penh to our hometown, enjoyed the cold fresh morning and sunrise from our car. We reached the place, did the jobs we were deserved to do for Chheng Meng with all relatives along with the fair good weather and had lunch together at the countryside. We took pictures (but mostly were my pics XD), chitchat most of things, drank coconuts, rode across the rice field, stood and stared at the cows… lol.. It was such a beautiful start of the day!!!! However, it ended up as the awful ending coz of the traffic! An average travelling duration from our hometown to Phnom Penh normally is around 2.5 hours only; however, we spent more than 5 hours that day! I was about to be carsick and so did everyone! Hmmmm…. Too bad to confront!!!                           ...