Before married, she told him she could not cook and he said it was okay coz he could cook... But after few years of married, he teased her so often of her disability in cooking...
Before married, she told him she was not type of beautiful girl, she was always called fattie and he said he loved her attitude, not appearance. A while after she gave birth to two children, she became even fatter and he advised her, she should look at herself and tried to lose some weight, especially her that ugly big belly...
Before married, she could earn around $200 and he didn't complain but he whispered as it should be better if she could earn $300. She did it to hit his expectation but he changed and whispered if she could get $400 and she made it again. He continued whispering and she did it from time to time until it became more than her first salary few times BUT he said it would be quite nice if she could get over 1K...She started doubting his purpose...
Her routine of life after her marriage: Get up around 6.30 am, takes care her children's bathing, feeds his breakfast spoon by spoon, sends the older to school and leave for work. When she is back in the evening of around 6.30 pm, she gonna takes care of her kids' bathing, feeds his dinner spoon by spoon again, takes care their medicine if required and back to have her own dinner and shower at around 8.30 pm. Then, she is teaching the elder kid and be with them until they fall asleep. Her mission doesn't end here, she always take care her cutie little kid full night of his milk and some at day time since her husband said she should do it just because in the day time, she wasn't home and take care them. More than that, weekend time, he complained as she must take care them fully since she doesn't really take care the kids of every full weekday. She ever complained back since she is not that free, she is working but the result is always the argument that make her feeling so jade and she agreed to accept it, be with the kids. However, during her working day, her Mom takes at least 6 hours per day to help looking after those boys since her husband goes for work. Hence, at the weekend, her Mom needs her daughter to accompany her for sightseeing or shopping, she needs refreshing herself and releases stress. At that moment, this married lady needs to give some space to her husband and save sometime to her mother. She cannot fulfill any of them a completed wish as they wanted. She ended up facing their disappointment and negative feeling toward her.... She got so much pressure on this matter, her Mom vs her husband...
Well, most of houseworks, her husband helps her to do. She does feel so blessed just for this point. Nothing is stable in this world, isn't it? One day, her husband complained badly to this matter. He won't say it in a direct way but all he meant, he shouldn't do this woman's works, housework... He feels ashamed and he asked her to try to understand him... He said she should be the one who does it....
Finally, she is called bad... She is called non-understandable, she is called lazy and blah blah blah... But how about her? Just because she won't complain of how tired she is, will it mean she is not tired at all? Lets answer, where is her time of being so free and useless? Of course, she knows she is still able to do those housework more on what she is always doing everyday but she does a lot already, doesn't it enough yet? She needs to work so hard, no matter how suffered she is at work, she is not allowed to stop by him, her family and also herself because she is struggling for this family. She cannot hang out even some little time very easily with her friends since her family said, she is married.... Evening, weekend or any days that she is free from work, she is told to be home and takes care her kids... When he wants to go out, he just tells her but when she wants to go out, she must ask for permission that sometime she is allowed and is often rejected. She has no single time left for herself.... Is she or him or her family that is not understandable? They all say that she won't understand them...
Her Mom isn't the case, she should even do more for her Mom since her Mom raised her so hard until her today and even helped take caring her kids... BUT, her husband!!! She real doesn't understand her husband, does he love her? She feel he is just so selfish...
He even can talk to her roughly but if she responds that same roughly, argument always occurs...
He wants her to earn as much as she could and he can do whatever he wants to do...
He always wants her to do this and that, yet, he says that she never understands him even though she does always follow his words in the purpose to maintain this family... When will he feel enough toward what she has been doing for this family so far? Or is it until her last breath?
There must be no LOVE within his heart... She doesn't think any men would want their loving ladies to be difficult...
He never ever understand her efforts...
Over 5 years of marriage life, all she mostly hear, she is not good at all...
