Coz I have no
plan nor goal…
I don’t know
what I am good at…
I don’t
understand myself…
I don’t get
it at all…
WHY?
Since first I
believed I had skills and talents…
I could see
my own potential which was greater than my circles…
There were
the eras I leaded people…
But then, I
remain at the same level…
But then, they
became higher than me…
Better level
than me…
I started to
lose hope day by day…
I started to
doubt…
I felt very
unfair…
Nothing has
been changed for my condition…
I ended up
being in my current circumstance…
I know
nowhere I am,
I know
nowhere I should go,
And I know
nowhere I should start again,
I gain no
power,
I gain no hopes,
Yet, I gain
my upset mood…
A smile of
mine is faded at the moment I dare to think about my future…
It is so
blur… yeah, quite blur!
Many times
which I often encouraged myself,
I cheered
myself,
I praised
myself,
I love myself
more,
This and
then, I still cannot maintain my inner peace…
And that is
me right now, disappointed…
Feeling down
deep to de dark….
This is me
right now at this seconds and minutes…
My career is
such a fail I have ever met. A failure which is quite so much to me…
No one would
believe I guess…yeah, I am sobbing right now….
How come my
life is quite a pathetic…
Sorry to
myself for moving to here in order to get the AM position, yet I am not
qualified enough and other person took this role…
I’m so sorry
to myself… from my quite broken heart…
