My dear speakup zone, my dear blog, I came here with a broken heart again...
and so does the broken soul...
I
cross path with a very great looking man,
He treats everyone generously,
His smile, his confidence…
He is the definition of angel… good looking, kind and righteous…
And I believed he gonna be a great person to deal with...
Time
goes by...
That
gentle guy and a great one to everyone, became the fierce one to me...
An angel to other, a devil to me…
He
grows negative perception on me and this negative perception quickly goes
stronger and stronger...
I've
tired to clear this perception...
Though,
it seems already attached to his bone and soul...
His
hatred to me is just wow...
That
stuck feeling in my chest is incredibly indescribable...
He
has no appreciation toward my efforts... But just hatred!
Everyone
can read him easily...
He
seems want to showoff his unpleasant behavior around me...
I
know, without smoke, there is no fire...
Things
happened for reasons...
I
believe I may cause something to make him grow perception...
Though,
that negativity is quite deep...
He
feedbacked me harshly...
I
did feel I was being mentally bullied...
Yet,
I cannot drop my on going project with him, this is my responsibility...
So,
I work double times harder... days and nights...
I
wish my hard work will pay off and we will bring back the healthy engagement...
Yet,
he just smirked and be like... “What is to appreciate while I just do my job??!!”
Nothing
is fixed...
His
words, his actions and his intension are all about removing me from his
project's life...
I
know, this is no longer in my control. I asked for help from my all good
people... Though, we still cannot revert and fix this relationship...
I
do love this project work, this is my dream, my goal... Yet, he closed the
door... He blocked me to touch all of my beloved work since this is under his
power, his empire...
No matter how I tried, it seems like no improvement in our
engagement… If I dare to speak a word, he will use that words to put me down… But
if other speak that word, nothing will happen… really has nothing happen to
other… He said I have no emotional intelligence… How come? He indirectly said I’m
stupid…
He made me feel very small… And he enjoys stepping on me… He
kicked me out of his empire and he even makes sure, I will not be able to touch
any of his projects…
He is very unkind toward me…
I
really need to lets this go and move on... with the sadden inner...
I absolutely can’t believe this things can happen… Do I have any
karma to pay off?
I’m so shocked to experience all of this things along with his strong
dark storm in my life… I honestly don’t feel I deserved all of this…
Last but not least, I do appreciate everyone who listen to me, be with me, feel my pain and tried their best to help... Having them in life, is the great gift ever!
