They shared me of their opinions, they told
me they didn’t mean they wanted to hold me back since I could choose what I
most preferred, that would be my right, my choice. Though, they may not notice
the way they spoke… The way they told me, they all meant I should not go to
that new place… They didn’t wanna lets me go… Something was so!
Finally, I put myself back at the current
place…
They would totally believe I also thought as
them that made me choose this way…
Frankly, my thought wasn’t changed… I still
wanted that place! I felt this type of circumstance already happened once in
the past whereas I wanted something so badly but I chose to give to that girl
because I trusted her words and she ended up betraying me perfectly… I was damn
sick of myself… I hated myself… I blamed myself for being generous to that wild
animal like her… I blamed myself for trusting other from my all… Nevertheless,
later on I’ve been back to believe “Kindness is nothing but the special gift
ever”. So, I didn’t change my thought of that new place but I wanna try
trusting people again and I chose to believe their kindness is pure…
They told me many good advantages but they
said they didn’t promise to give me…They only meant I may get it… Then, they
told me about those advantages again… They said they didn’t promise but it was
totally a promise! Well, let’s see what would happen in 2020 since they said it
would happen next half year or something…
I chose to trust them and if they break it, I
don’t think I would suffer that much since I ever experienced that feeling
already…
I chose to invest a bit several months and
let’s see how would the destiny treats me…
I wanna challenge myself… At a glance, maybe
I look like I wanna play game with pains but I think I won’t lose any much… No
pains, no gains!
And opportunity would come to me again in
another miracle way…
