Work Difficulty

While we are working under someone, dealing with many different people…not our own business, for sure, there are thousands things that make us almost non-breathing. It’s called pressure. Is it the culture of work? Hmmm…it should be so. Some said sales & marketing is a hard task while some said customer service is harder, always deal with complains and solutions. Other think, Human Resource or recruitment maybe better since we only need to recruit staff but let’s believe that all kind of works are full of pressure…. To my own experience, recruitment is interesting but quite hart to deal with.

Since I start working in a recruitment agency, I meet a lot of problems. I’m a fresh one for this skill, never had experience before. When I start in this field, I need to learn and face many things. I need to learn how to interview while this only use with English language but I’m not very good with pronunciation, still in a limitation. Do you know what happen to me? The ones who have a very good English comprehension, they are teasing me, they repeatedly talk about the words I get wrong with….in fact, I’m so embarrassed but later, I get much improving and even stronger than before. I know the way to deal with this kind of people. They may have good heart to teach me but they should use a better way, not the way that make me down so. After that, I am assigned to handle some positions. I meet problem again as I don’t have many network, so it’s hard to find candidates that fit with the job description. Moreover, most of the posts that I handle are the low positions, low salary or if a bit higher positions, mostly it would be for working at the provinces. It’s not really easy to fill those positions. Some positions, I can find candidates but they are not selected when they already met with my clients (because of multi cases). I spent time for nothing but need to find more. In case I could find more and get success but unluckily they cannot stay with my client until the end of probation, I need to find more to replace with free of charge. I got tired. More than that, while I could get success but the salary is not a high one, so we cannot charge much…then, I will hear someone said “hmmm… just a small amount of money!” awww….how come that person could speak so? Doesn’t that person think this word hurt me? I’m also human, I have heart, if cannot always but should be sometime that person should think of my feeling. I get success but I’m not really praised. I get disappointed but just keep silent. How a pressure it is!

I want to complain a lot but I can’t because the culture of work in Cambodia said, “If you think you can patient to work, that’s okay. Anyway, if you don’t really satisfied, no need to complain but just leave here”. A lot of unfair things happen. Sometime, all staff use working time to do some personal things but since they sit in the good locations, no one knows what they are doing. This is what I want to raise up, my seat is in a public one, everyone can see whatever I do on my PC… then, at one day, I’m really bored and I’m careless to check some entertainment website… you know, I got warn, much warn from the management. I got much blaming words indirectly. I know I’m wrong to use working time to get something so but why that person blames only me? How about other? They’re also…just that person doesn’t see... Hmmm…. I’m wrong, I should get this punish…but it should not only me cause I’m only one among many! In addition, some of my teamwork are too much. They did much bad to me. I always get suffer from their act and words….working here; I feel I don’t have much value… I feel I’m not really welcomed… I want to stop working there many times; still I’m always denied by my mother and my special. They both may not understand of my internal-sickness…my feeling get suffered. I do describe what I am difficult with but they said it’s not serious enough for me to stop. :’(

Fortunately, this place’s also the place which teaches me a lot of thing to improve my past-weak-points. Thus, there are also many good people here… some staff are very good people. They do understand much of other. Later, they become my good friends. I even found two more closed friends from here. They all are the reasons I can continue to stay here longer. However, why this good thing is so fast to end? Currently, they are all separately and go to different places. Some get scholarship for studying abroad, some get new better offered-job and some are busy with their study and stop from here. As the result, I’m now alone in this recruitment company.  I don’t think I can continue here…. I better stay home and relax a few months first. After everything’s going fine with my side, I maybe can find another new career…

Quit work, this is not really a good choice…. I would have no money to pay anything….but it would be the best choice to cure my internal one.