My last day at work

Today is my last day at my recruitment company. I feel so sad while this day just arrives quite fast. Sometime it's better stop at any points so I can enjoy it a bit longer. To me, I don't wanna leave here at all... I miss all of things here and especially people! My very kind managements and those lovely and full of joys of my colleagues! They always being with me and help me laugh even if I don't tend to laugh. However, I'm still forced to leave here. Nobody could lets me go beside my own. I, myself decided to leave here!!! It's been so tough to get this decision while my personal issues keep pushing me to do so. I'm going to be jobless from tomorrow and it would gonna be the time I need to hunt for new job soon after I'm ready and feel free from my problems.

I would really miss you all, I'm seriously confessing! :'(

Meantime, I got a chatting with one of my colleagues....he's so sweet!

You hurt my heart :'{

Again and again, I feel my heart is melting… it hurts and it’s hard to breathe. He always makes me become so. I hate, do hate this feeling! What the fu*k is it?! Being a couple, he should understand while one is in anger, another should be calm and patient. I know I may a bit annoying and causing problems currently since I’m not feeling well at all. This week is my last week with my job... See??? My head is in full of being worried about our family economic, how long would I survive without working? I need to hunt for new job as soon as possible. This little family depend on me 75%, then this problem already makes me sick. I can’t feel secure. See?? That’s why my feeling seem up and down with all things, including him. He better understand me but he seems not so. While I’m in anger, he just returns it back to me perfectly…argument happen, no doubt! :[

I feel regret after this happening, I know I’m not really right to be so. I wanna rescue it back. I wanna cure this wound of situation. I try to be cold and act sweetly to him….who know? He acts as a prince…an arrogant prince and ignores me, not care of my words! Feeling like I’m just a slave! :/ Damn ashamed I am!!! I obviously wanna disappear for a while since it’s hard to face with him… coz I now so hate him much! :’(