You hurt my heart :'{

Again and again, I feel my heart is melting… it hurts and it’s hard to breathe. He always makes me become so. I hate, do hate this feeling! What the fu*k is it?! Being a couple, he should understand while one is in anger, another should be calm and patient. I know I may a bit annoying and causing problems currently since I’m not feeling well at all. This week is my last week with my job... See??? My head is in full of being worried about our family economic, how long would I survive without working? I need to hunt for new job as soon as possible. This little family depend on me 75%, then this problem already makes me sick. I can’t feel secure. See?? That’s why my feeling seem up and down with all things, including him. He better understand me but he seems not so. While I’m in anger, he just returns it back to me perfectly…argument happen, no doubt! :[

I feel regret after this happening, I know I’m not really right to be so. I wanna rescue it back. I wanna cure this wound of situation. I try to be cold and act sweetly to him….who know? He acts as a prince…an arrogant prince and ignores me, not care of my words! Feeling like I’m just a slave! :/ Damn ashamed I am!!! I obviously wanna disappear for a while since it’s hard to face with him… coz I now so hate him much! :’(