RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

I read Chinese Zodiac and some related webs since last year for my this year fortune and all I could remember very well, this year brings me such the blossom charm, I would be very beautiful in all ways to other, especially the opposite gender. I just laughed and didn’t ignore…lol… About last six months, I joined one new world, met new people but performed similar activities. I thought I would feel bored but I had to come in order to get out from my previous misery world. Though, things went on very opposite to what I thought… I got such the happiness and humor feeling most of time from doing my tasks and especially, from meeting new people who had beautiful heart and appearance. Moreover, most of them called me the beauty especially the opposite gender; the Chinese Zodiac did guess it well. I was alike in fantasy world for about 5 months… The six month arrived this lately and it is the month which is moving to year end soon… The people who called me beauty, they may...

I remember when I was single, I thought of marrying a poor guy since I wanted us to be strong together by fighting all obstacles together. I thought that marrying the poor guy would make us living roughly at most only 5 years and it would become the healthy roots to our richer life. We would value our love, our happiness and our treasures since we didn’t give up each other in that poverty time but joined hands and walked forward through the sunshine, the rain and the storm… My wish came very true… Actually, I didn’t marry the poor guy but the middle class one… However, all his wealth was faded shortly after marriage… I didn’t exactly believe it caused from my wish but I did feel so…lol… A wish which seemed a curse… From a businessman who owned two businesses over ten years and was living in two rental flats that he could always support for over ten years too; he became a guy who had nothing after those businesses were collapsed…  He was back to work for government public...

It was a nice day, the sky was so kind by sharing its gentle cold temperature with very less sunshine, I did love it. I, my honey and our both boys went for breakfast… Yeah, we were quite comfortable with this weather, so we all suggested for a trip to Oudong Mountain… We prepared this and that but not very much, though we still left home a bit late, at 10am. Around 20 mins after our departure, the sun started shining and shared its heat just very much… I got cheated by the sun… hmmm… We still continued our trip… We arrived the place at 11.30am, we drove around the mountain and enjoyed the view of green forest… We had lunch at a nearby restaurant first and at around 1.15pm, we went up through hundreds stars to the top of mountain… it was quite hot and we were very tired but we dared to make it happen and we did… There were a lot of fun along the way to the top and it was quite the beautiful scenery from the top of mountain to the bottom… We saw colorful roof of villagers’homes, th...

It was an unplanned trip for me and my family to the mountain nearby our city of Phnom Penh. First, we went to visit my sister’s house until it was 3pm, all family’s members were willing to go visiting Baseth Mountain and nothing had been prepared, even our clothes and make-up…. On the way to the mountain, the street wasn’t in good condition, it was very rough. I did feel scary to be on this street coz the street was in the middle of the water, both left and right side were water and I thought it should be the river…huge river… In addition, we never visited there for over 10 years that we were asking people along the street in order to find the place. However, one hour and a half later, we reached the mountain. It was a scary moment again, the road going up to the mountain was very sloped… The right side was the mountain and the left side had nothing but forest and that high as cliff… We did risk our lives every second… Finally, we still made it…hehehe… It was so windy on the to...

I am now at the state of wondering my old me of last several years… I called my old me last several years as “She or Her”. Well, I really don’t understand her at all. I don’t know what she thought so far in the past. She always let opportunity go away from her and even some opportunities were trying to catch her, she still pushed them away, ran from them, escaped them or ignored them. Her circles aren’t like her. Her circles, her friends all become higher with management level and business owners. Because of her, I become this low and all I’m having, the low class, low paid and high responsibilities of my life. Because of her, I am striving so hard to live in this world. Uhmmm,  I feel so disappointed to my old me…. I have no ideas why I did that in the past… Why I ran from those opportunities… And until right now, I want them so much but none of them still come to me… I just feel sympathetic to myself… I don’t think I deserve this kinda life… I feel resentfu...