I and my team got a nice but tiring project…
My management set the deadline and the rest
had our own target and responsibilities to be completed in order to reach that
deadline.
We all were trying hard to do but things didn’t
go so well. What I observed, we did repeated job since we only focused on our individual
duties without knowing our team members well. Hence, I thought of solution and
raised up to the team. Team loved my idea. So, I noticed to the management and
the management said we can do it in any method we felt good with and ensure our
result aligns with timeline. I saw it as Green Light!
Thing went almost well… Then, one team member
seems not delighted with my way of work as a whole and filed the complaint.
Immediate meeting was set and I explained and solved shortly.
That team member complained second time,
another meeting set up and I explained again… Things calmed down…
That team member’s still not happy with my
proposal… He felt like I assigned job for him to do… He filed complaint to the
management again… I was so devastated to this repeated consequence and I was
out of patience… Even I did explain but they must never had accepted it that
caused another and one another meeting took place… This last meeting was the
worst one… I could not control my temper, I felt the management frankly was not
happy with my proposal.
He asked me why this project had to follow my
suggestion?
I told him it could save a lot of time without
confusion and we ensure good result…
He asked me… so why was I the one who lead?
I told him, I didn’t lead it… Team asked me to
do only… Anyone could do it…
He asked me… Couldn’t it be done in other way?
I told him, why not? We can… I won’t defend my
opinion and rejected other… Then, what kind of method would he prefer?
He raised up…
I challenged… So that cannot be…
He raised up again…
I challenged again… and it really won’t work…
He seems upset… and so did me!
I told him, I was challenging for better, not
bitter!
We both ended the discussion…
We tried to fix our mood and back to
professionalism…
Yet, we found it hard to face each other like
nothing happened…
Today, I find out something interesting…
The fact behind the management reaction to me
is that…
He misunderstood me…
He thought I leaded the team without his
approval… He forgot himself that I already noticed to him…
He mentioned like… I acted like the management
who assigned tasks for team members… The way I did so far, it is inappropriate…
Since that is not me but him in term of a lead person…
I feel awkward to know this…
And it went like…
Ahhhh… Again!!! I look better as BITCH,
oppositely to who I am…
I almost could not believe my ears…
I always thought he was the one who would
always stand on my side…
But he misunderstood me…
He chose to see me negatively first!
He felt offended, did he?
I am not that type of person…
And he is on his way to find another way to
complete this project…
He could not accept the way I work, no matter how
positive the result can be…
And I am sure I would zip my lips… and just
lets it flow the way he flips…
I am so disappointed to know he is seeing me
so…
I never meant to insult him or his power…
Oh my pity soul!
I do sympathize myself for being innocent
inside by bitchy cover I must look like…
