I
met her in the mid of 2018 and we were getting along quite well. We shared many
personal stories and we consoled, encouraged and helped each other. We laughed a
lot, we have many in common…
She
is very positive and cares free…
Until
this early year, she seems changed…
Maybe
this is only my feeling, isn’t it?
She
became silent, she seemed react in a negative vision…
I’m
wondering what has happened on her?
Hence,
I go closer to her, embrace her soul and bravo for all her good achievement...
I
won’t do this for only her but I am always that glad, that happy to see my
friends become success…
Yet,
she defined my praising words on her high achievement in such a way…
She
asked me why did I say congratulation to her? She said there was nothing she
saw that I should say so… She said that was her job that she must complete,
there was really inappropriate for me to react this way...
Ehhh,
she must think I was teasing her…
She
must think I am insincere…
She
must think what I don’t think of at all…
To
me, all the success would be celebrated in praising words or any ways that
bring our spirit the charm of enjoy winning…
And
I do mean my words for her, I’m real!
Uhmmm….
She seems weird to me…
I
was surprised and awkward to hear that from her…
But
she is still the good girl, she told me directly without hesitation, so I could
explain…
If
she kept it, a wall would be built little by little between us and it would separate
us one day without any notices…
I’m
thankful for her reaction!
Nevertheless,
I was still not sure why it could turn to be so…
I
asked my bestie and she shared me similar story…
Sometime,
that is because of environment and mood that turn a person to be so…
Plus,
I should reflect my words again as well…
Be
careful before saying…
And
of course, most of people find it hard to believe me…
She
is not the first person anyway…
Because
I have such a sweet voice which most of people believe that my kind is witch
inside…
In
addition, I have a cunning smile! XD
Hehehehe….
I have no choice; I cannot change myself for anyone since this is me… But I trust
myself for my pure sincerity…
Though
I have sweet voice, I am not that poisonous inside…
Though
I am in snake year, I am NOT the snake attitude…
Though
my smile is sometime bitchy, I am NOT a bitch…
I
never wanna win anyone, I only wanna win my old me to become a better me…
I
really have no ideas why most of people are trying to compare themselves to me,
try harder in order to win me and keep me as their enemy even I really did
nothing wrong to them… I only do my job for myself and they thought I am quite
show off or something…
Do
I look better as bitch, a bad person?
(The
question I keep asking myself whenever people misunderstand me and see me in opposite
aspect from my real intention…)
