She acts weird…

I met her in the mid of 2018 and we were getting along quite well. We shared many personal stories and we consoled, encouraged and helped each other. We laughed a lot, we have many in common…

She is very positive and cares free…

Until this early year, she seems changed…

Maybe this is only my feeling, isn’t it?

She became silent, she seemed react in a negative vision…

I’m wondering what has happened on her?

Hence, I go closer to her, embrace her soul and bravo for all her good achievement...

I won’t do this for only her but I am always that glad, that happy to see my friends become success…

Yet, she defined my praising words on her high achievement in such a way…

She asked me why did I say congratulation to her? She said there was nothing she saw that I should say so… She said that was her job that she must complete, there was really inappropriate for me to react this way...

Ehhh, she must think I was teasing her…

She must think I am insincere…

She must think what I don’t think of at all…

To me, all the success would be celebrated in praising words or any ways that bring our spirit the charm of enjoy winning…

And I do mean my words for her, I’m real!

Uhmmm…. She seems weird to me…

I was surprised and awkward to hear that from her…

But she is still the good girl, she told me directly without hesitation, so I could explain…

If she kept it, a wall would be built little by little between us and it would separate us one day without any notices…

I’m thankful for her reaction!

Nevertheless, I was still not sure why it could turn to be so…

I asked my bestie and she shared me similar story…

Sometime, that is because of environment and mood that turn a person to be so…

Plus, I should reflect my words again as well…

Be careful before saying…

And of course, most of people find it hard to believe me…

She is not the first person anyway…

Because I have such a sweet voice which most of people believe that my kind is witch inside…

In addition, I have a cunning smile! XD

Hehehehe…. I have no choice; I cannot change myself for anyone since this is me… But I trust myself for my pure sincerity…

Though I have sweet voice, I am not that poisonous inside…

Though I am in snake year, I am NOT the snake attitude…

Though my smile is sometime bitchy, I am NOT a bitch…

I never wanna win anyone, I only wanna win my old me to become a better me…

I really have no ideas why most of people are trying to compare themselves to me, try harder in order to win me and keep me as their enemy even I really did nothing wrong to them… I only do my job for myself and they thought I am quite show off or something…

Do I look better as bitch, a bad person?

(The question I keep asking myself whenever people misunderstand me and see me in opposite aspect from my real intention…)