RellaDeQueen: We will always be the one we commit to be!

People would be really excited and proudly to be promoted; though, it seems strange to me... I feel so nervous and mix up. Of course, such an untidy feeling I meet... I feel surprised and unexpected... I don’t really feel ready to get this opportunity... Such a stress mood... It takes a night to think of obvious problems that cause me to be so... Then I see... I get promoted without any pre-inform to me...Though, it is not so strange but there is something quite stranger than this... There is no any discussion to all my team as well... They look so awkward to hear this hot information...some looks fine to hear while some looks so unsatisfied to know it... They may think it is communist...without any discussion from team...Nahhh, Communist never exists in my favorite list...I love freedom... I love democracy... Everyone wanna do something bigger... So do I...but in a proper way than this surprised promotion... I still need team to support me... Once they feel so, will they be able to a...

What is going on of my inner feeling now? I feel so complicated... I’m not sure what I exactly want... My inner world used to be so peaceful without any envy; though, right now I feel so messy... That seems there are two human being in my this single body...one is so starving to get that stuff while another say she doesn’t care of what happens...no matter who takes that stuff, it’s not her business since it doesn’t mean only to be her possession since first step... Still, the first say that at first moment, she deserves to get it and even allow to get it but just a glance, that stuff is taken and give to the new person... and that new person is someone she won’t willing to fight for getting back that stuff..coz it is the best stuff that person should catch...especially, that person is someone she likes...she can’t sacrificed to achieve for herself but better for that person... Actually it is also her choice...to give up and encourage that person to get...but one of her feeling still f...

Remember of that day while it was cats and dogs raining as today, it was almost my leaving time from work. I had to leave even there's no raincoat and it’s heavy rain since if I wait, I will stuck in that traffic jam with floody street and my motorbike may also stop working coz of that plenty water...Then, my honey called to ask me if I didn't have raincoat so he would bought for me... Yeah!!! I said YES...but I also said...at least he could bring me the green one or I won’t take it...hahahaha... He yelled at me... "Yisss, do you still think of your favorite color in this kinda condition?" hehehe... ma intention got success... I knew he wouldn't be able to calm down from my overboard words since that is his nature...his real type... Just meant to put him in fire..gagaga... Around 20 mins passed...he called me to take the raincoat...awww....he brought me the Green one...while he’s wet of his full body...and I asked him why...he said...coz he tried to trav...

My friend, closed one, lovely one and sweetie one just came back from vacation in Vietnam and she doesn't forget in choosing such a cutie gift for me as a clock...so fit with my working desk...feeling so fresh and that's my taste my interest! yayyyy!!!! ^^ Here it is...

Once you meet a guy whom is quite unique to you...from his so sweet caring...he always asks if you are fine...worry of you...even find out whenever you are unhappy...be with you all the time, make you smile, make you laugh and show as you are his girl in front of all people and even the only one... act as proudly to have you... pretty happy to be with you... no matter where he is, he still call to visit you...say he misses you...love you and even say that wanna marry you...You seem have no negative parts to him...This is a kind of Boyfriend that exists in this world... You just can’t say directly but actually you already agree to give the rest of your life be a long with him...really love him, excited and fall into romance and pinky world once there is him...Image and memory of your marvelous day together remain in both pure hearts... Finally, you both got married...  HOWEVER, after married, life have been changed...that boyfriend whom is now your husband become so rough fro...