Love you, My Young Man

Today, I go to riverside with my family. The weather is nicely but it is strange since people are so crowded even it is just normal working day. I try to go through people and see what is happening and I see they are feeding the fishes, very big amount of fishes!!!  So I take my bread and tear them into small pieces to throw into the water. However, one fish that is in front of me, it won’t eat at all but just looking at me… It is a lot bigger than other fishes… “What is this fish??? Ehhh, big…feeling similar…”, I talk to myself but nearby uncle turns to look at that fish and shouts, “Wow!!!! Dolphin, right? Dolphin! Dolphin!” Everyone turns to that fish direction and it is real Dolphin! Because of this chaos, that Dolphin is scared and tries to escape. I try to follow it…”Stop, stop!!!”

I try to follow it until it reaches a place near the port, it stops and vanishes. Wahhhhhhhh, Dolphin ghost???? I’m trying to look into the river and find it…. Suddenly, a person knocks my back, “I’m here!!!” I turn back stupidly…. A young boy of around 12 years old stands in front of me with nicely white suits and a cute face.

Me: Who?

Boy: me!

Me: I asked who are you? O__o?

Boy: I said it’s me!

Me: Boy…. Sister is tired with you…okkk…go go… never know you! I’m busy!

Boy: Are you busy to find Dolphin?

Me: Yeaaaaa…..ahhh you know where it has gone? ^^

Boy: Yes!

Me: Where?

Boy: In front of you!

Me: Ehhhhhhh? What?

Boy: I’m that Dolphin sis! Hahaha….

I can accept it quite fast since I feel I ever met this situation….hmmm….aiii… +___+ lol

We are talking and laughing… he tells me there are around 150 Dolphin in this river… I ask him if he wants to experience in the sea and I can help but he replies immediately… He is belonging to river, not the sea…or he will die… Actually, I know…just playing around…hehehehe….

Just for a while, he tells me he gonna leave now… there, his brother is walking to him… I look to that far place per his point and see a good looking middle age guy of around 35 years old with his T-shirt and jeans… Well, good enough to drag me falling with that first glance but I can come back to sense since he must be the Dolphin too if they are brothers… I don’t think I can love fish today… XD It must be the first time of my life that I don’t fall in love for this kind of guy….lol… I never forbid myself successfully to not falling in love even I know who they real are but this time….

I am back to my house. It is strange again. It is a silent wooden house, dark just like black out and even full of dust. What the heck is it? +_+’ I work with my broom to clean all those dust. Until a spot, I see a window… I walk toward it and open…wowwwww the light is coming into this dead house and everything changes just like a magic! It becomes a flat that stands on the top of the building of 3 floor or something. It becomes clean and bright! Open the window is just alike to release the curse…And I am that heroine…lol

I am on that top floor, looking down for sightseeing and I see a beggar looks at me. I feel pity and call him to go upstairs to my house. He is so messy and dirty. His appearance is so disgusting but what I feel pity about is his lonely kid eyes…hmmm…. He seems so young I think but his body is big enough as a man… I give him right to use my bathroom for bathing. I’m preparing food for him… This is my goodness today and I would send him out of my house when he is ready with the meal…hehe…

A half hour later, aiiiiii…. What does he do in my bathroom???? Take so much time!!! Never meet this kinda neat bathroom, doesn't he? ^^ I use my ear to touch the bathroom’s door and try to listen…. What if he collapses? Suddenly he opens the door and I’m falling to kiss his chest…and would continue to kiss the floor…erzzzzz but he holds me on time… We both are awkward with this accidentally hugging… but…but….buttttt….. he is not that so young as I thought… He is a real man…aiii…. I’m so puzzle…. I even ask him a silly question with my circle questioning eyes O-O?…”How old are you???” he replies…. 22 years old…why????

Uhmmm…. He is younger than me 4 years… lol… It is first time again that I feel something so to someone younger than me…never ever…lol… I feel so positive for him…hehehe…. He lately asks me with highly respect if I can lets him stay at here since he has nowhere to go, no job to do and no class to learn…. I crazily happy with this request and say YES!!! Sorry to myself….lol…. I feel I like him at first sight….the first sight after his bathing! lol

From day to day, month to month…he is staying here and does all the housework, even cook. He treats me as princess and he is a cook, a cleaner, a repairer, a driver, a private body guard ^^… I am so comfortable and warm lol…. He even gets a part time job and starts his university class…. Weekdays, we are doing our duties of work or study and weekend; we are out for a walk…hehehe…

One evening, on the bench in the natural garden at the riverside again, I and him are talking non-stop and I am even sharing about my crushes…hehe… I tell him, I have crushes at work and I even crush my cousin but he is now on mission for army….

He stares at me for a bit and pull my head to lay on his shoulder…awww…for what???? He never dares to touch any of me again after that accident in front of bathroom... Even with a lot of doubts, I won’t take my head out... so enjoyable….Hehehe… I, without sense-controlled, pull his big arm and embrace tightly… I tell him… uhmmm and I also like you…hahaha…. Like you for sure…. But just like…not love! Okk??? {{What a fake me is! Lol surely love him…}} He laughs and says, he toward me is much more than just like...as huge as to the moon and back...

=====What do you mean young guy???===== @,@"

We do enjoy that evening… lol

In the dawn one day, I see he gets up from his room but I just cannot get up too….so early to confront…

It is noisy in the kitchen than normal…. Until around 6.30 AM, I get up and walk to the kitchen room… In the kitchen, the décor is changed very creatively and the warm food is on the table but no his presence… I am; who still with my bed dress, walking around to find him but instead, I see my cousin who joined the army, he is back and smile at me brightly… I feel nothing special for him...

Though, there must be something get confused I think! My young love would confuse as I love my cousin so until he is back, my young love decides to leave me… all his stuff is lost…. I'm crying so hard for cannot find him…. I'm trying to shout for him…. I'm trying to look down and find him but nothing can help…. I knee down there in my front yard of my third floor house and looking down crying like a baby…. My heart is shaking painfully… my breath becomes pausing sometime… I'm to the max sad for thinking I'm losing him…. Until I wake up…..

It was a dream again…. Whatever, there is real tear on my cheek and real pain in my chest….

Such so misery dream ever that I have had… Must be the first time too!