It has been tough to me and so does lately… I never had enough sleep
since I need to take care my both sons who got such an illness (over 10 times per day of vomiting and diarrhea; plus, high tempered) but well, they weren’t poisoned but
the big son was with typhoid and the smallie was having bacteria in his nose,
throat and intestine! They are still in treatment process… it has been over a week already…
Because my husband was abroad, all the responsibilities as the mother and the father had to be shown from me… I finally got flu but still tried to care them no matter what… I’m easily putting my own self in pressure and also this time… I never dared to hit my son but this time…and it was much too I guessed since my parents and my brother came to stop me but I didn't stop hitting him until the moment my little boy was looking to me sadly with his tears..."Mommy, it's hurt alot!!!"... I was frozen and speechless and stopped by myself.... This happened coz I was so mad that he was trying to vomit and lets the medicine out… I ended up deeply regret for being this way…
Yes, I felt totally guilty and I turned immediately to talk with him, asked him for forgiveness... What did I get? He smiled to me and hugged me tight without any words... I felt so touching and of course, I was so hurt.... I cannot stop my tears... Sorry my son! Your mom is kinda psycho!!! :'(
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