No answer…I don’t know what to do beside writing…or because I am a student of English Literature? NO…but because I’m boring but I cannot listen to music, cannot view facebook nor watch video…coz that was the working time…hmmm….sometime I’m really boring to be a professional staff. Oh… I got idea! I should talk about what I want…good? Yeah! Sure! But, what I want to talk about? I trust you would believe, sometime we got stuck and even hard to find what to do. Right now, my topic today is nothing to talk about. hehehe.. So crazy you think I am, I guess. Yeah, no problems…you can think so, coz I'm not sure if I'm not neither. lol… Eh, let me talk about my dislike? Emmm, let it be… in fact, it’s also my concern currently.
It relates to my workplace. Have you ever experience in sales & marketing? To me, I have been in this field about almost 3 years. I honestly confess as I really hate it. I hate being the sales and marketing staff with the new products/ new coming brand. I too much hate it. Maybe there is hard to show how much I hate it since it's quite unlimited amount. With new products, we need to give a lot of effort on it. It doesn’t mean I don’t like challenging but I don’t like wasting my time, is much a better reason. I don’t think I should do it while I have many choices to choose. In fact, if those products are already going well in market, I would not hesitate to be in this position. Is it the selfish word? It would be but it’s the reality of mine. I think this position bring me a lot of conflict because I also had experience in this. While there are new products, they give staff commission and when the word of Commission come up, the word of Interfere would also occur. People always say that Money is not everything. However, no money, we get none-everything… it’s extremely correct. Even good friends, they still turn to be enemy easily because of money. I frankly tend to escape from being in this field. Later on, I moved into HR field which satisfied me a lot at first step. Although, it seems the same and the same things while being the HR in recruitment agency, we need to find candidates to fit the vacancies… just like sales and marketing, selling people’ qualification and ability. However, it makes me feel busy and yeah, I love being busy, then it is my favorite...
Everything cannot just stay stable, absolutely agree with this. It would be up and down by the situation. My career also doesn’t stay the same! Policy had been changed! We are agency of recruitment but according to the new plan of New Year, we would mix this field into sales and marketing field. Then, it is barrier in my views. Our team consultants soon, in January new year, we would be required to go outside mostly to find clients. We need to respond to our target in order to reach the plan. Is it an easy work? Everyone know, it is not an easy one but if they have commitment, then that’s alright. How about this fat no-confident girl? ==' I don’t want to do it at all. Repeatedly, I hate going outside and hate being sales staff. In addition, according to new plan, everyone in consultant team must go to each places as had been planned; especially the universities and organizations in term of presenting and explaining about our company service, building capacity, yeah, it is public speaking. To me, it is another obstacle while I don’t have bravery to stand up and spreading my speech in front of many people. I would feel shaking and much scare to this environment. Many eyes are looking to me, I’m afraid of losing face because there are many people who keep watching me so it will be easily to see my mistakes. Even I have a huge warm heart, but I also feel negatively to bad criticizing or gossip. I’m sad!!!
Some said everyone has their talent. Do you think so? I support this idea. No matter how much you try to do something that is not your talent, you can’t reach it or even reach it very hard. For example, a girl who is quite good at chemistry, biology and dream to be a doctor; however, her parents thought it was not good for their elder daughter because she needed to spend many years in learning this, she would be much old. They wanted her to have husband after she graduated. They wanted to see her with her own family. So they forced her to learn accounting skill. They thought it was also a good skill and spent only around 4 years to learn. She couldn’t deny and accepted with unsatisfied. Two years later, she knew nothing of accounting. She felt stress of it and told her parents it's better if they allowed her to stay home instead of studying that skill. At that time, her parents understood it. Even they had forced her and she'd agreed to accept as well but since she didn’t like it, then it was nothing for her while it would become the wasting time. Finally they agreed to let her study medicine. She would spend more time in this field because there was 2 years already that was spent useless to her but she’s really love to get it. Later, she became the outstanding student in class; got the admiration with high score of writing or even oral test. You may doubt if it is true or why I know it, isn’t it? Of course, it is the real one and she's my best friend, Malika.
Thus, some people have talent in running business. No matter how much they got educated or training to be a professional staff, finally they would go back to their skill and run their own business because it is the real thing could make them happy and tend to do it. Just like me, I’m so good at encouragement or persuading other, warm them and give suggestions or comments; by the way, public speaking is not my skill so I believe, how much I have been forced to do it, how much I would keep trying, how long I would spend my time, I still cannot do it well. It’s not what I love but what I hate. Sure, training keeps us improving, so I may be able to improve my presentation skill; still, it is not the best one as be expected. Then, why should I do it? Why need to force me to do it? No answer…lets they answer, the ones who want me to become so. They may think “I’m so weak…I’m not brave…I’m not challenging…it’s an easy task but I’m not able to do it, poor me…I may become the useless resource of company…” Of course, it is their talent, how could they see it as a hard one? Although, I don’t really care much, I would be here as long as I can pay my patient since fast moving in career is not a good one but if that pressure still say hello to me and keep chasing me, I’m better staying home. Hahhahaa….staying home and jobless!? No… I’m just kidding. I wouldn’t staying home but I wound find another better career which make me happy to be with. Result will start from commitment. As commitment would not build in me with Sales & Marketing nor Public Speak, no reason to be here. Just like, would you marry and keep living with the one you hate? Hhahahah…. I know your real answer. Everyone would answer the same things even they said agree, but don’t believe it, just the fake one.
Working is not easy but a happy time with colleagues, to me. At the same time, being under other power is not the thing everyone wishes to have. Certainly, everyone wants to grow faster and be the leader. Yeahhhh, I’m so young to be the leader in professional company, I know this! But I’m not young to run business….lol….that’s it! I would run my own business. Not a professional one but just be a good one, a smooth one which can support my family well. I would be a warm kind boss but powerful to my staff, I would seek to see their talent before employ them and would not regret if I employed them. It is what containing in my mind and it is what I want to raise here. Still, I got another doubt…..what will be the appropriate business for me? loading….in processing to consider….lolzzzz
